Discussion Fear of progressing but also regressing

[sourcreamonion]

I have a fear of moving on with my life because it feels like it'll be wasted knowing how impulsive I am towards wanting to CTB, but I also have a fear of returning back into a pitiable state where I can't do anything and look useless around others while everyone else is moving on. I want to catch up with everyone around me, but don't at the same time

I guess it's like a game of cat and mouse. Anyone else feel like this?

 

[IWantToSleep]

Sometimes I consider making an effort but my mind tells me it'll be a waste of time.

 

[moonchild]

Totally. What would my ~happy life~ even look like? I don't even know what I want it to look like, and I'm afraid of looking back on this time and regretting how I went about things. I'd rather nothing changed, because even if the way things are right now isn't great, at least it's something I know. But instead I'm just falling behind a little bit every day.

Do you feel like you have a fear of committing to getting better? I think that's my main problem with this, that I'm afraid of committing to it, because if I try and it still doesn't work out I'll feel even worse. :/

 

[kokosnight]

everyone in my life are moving on with their lives and i'm stuck in the past....i keep having bad memory flashbacks and it's just killing me, i hate it i hate it i just wanna do the normal stuff i used to do again and move on