Feel like my body is vibrating so hard its still

[Shewaitsforme]

I was discharged yesterday by the consultant (5 weeks on a psych ward). The psychologist didnt agree, but anyway i was discharged. Got home felt worse than i have in months took a few sleepers. Next thing i have two police officers, an ambulance crew at my flat. Taken to A&E, sent home. Today has been bad, some thing said get up go get the CO stuff and do it, felt like my body was vibrating so hard it wasnt even noticable. Got to Asda, planned to get the things required and drive somewhere quiet. Bumped into the 2 people i cant face and was just stood there stuck. Jumped in a taxi to A&E, sat waiting only for my two collegues (the ambulance crew who also brought me in last night) to see me sat there crying. Now i have to wait for home based treatment who will probably discharge me tonight. I lie there most nights just wishing my heart would stop but it doesnt. Cocktails of coke, crack, gabapentin but still here

 

[Maravillosa]

<<<Hugs>>> I am so sorry for what you are going through, @Shewaitsforme. I hope you find peace soon, one way or another.

 

[Threads]

5 weeks in the ward?

Jesus Christ. We're all here for you. You're safe here.