Help Feeling at a crossroads

[unsurehowtomove]

I've been lurking for a while but haven't posted anything yet. I guess today is that day that it changes.

I'm sure this is a feeling that lots of people have discussed this before but here goes. I feel like I'm a crossroads. I've had some health issues this year that are pushed me into a deep depression that lasted months. I feel like I'm not at my lowest point anymore but I'm still not the person that I used to be.

I know I need to start my making positive changes. I feel like I'm ok enough to just exist but not good enough to thrive. I know any changes will be very hard, expensive (time and money) and scary and anxiety-inducing.

I worry that if I make the steps forward that I need to make to move forward that it'll somehow make everything worse in a different way. Like opening up a new set or reasons to feel depressed and I'll lose what little good that I have right now. I often don't feel brave or strong enough to change, if that makes sense.

Question:
If you felt this way, what did you do to help yourself from this spot?

Did you spend some time alone to sort out your thoughts? Did you reach to a loved one for help? Did you seek out professional help first?

I've been thinking of doing a couple of days to myself to sort out my thoughts maybe scream into a the void a bit but I don't know if this will help.

Thanks for taking the time to read

 

[lost_ange1]

The first question I can't really answer as I've always came back to a bad or worse state but I have some input for the others.

Of course it can help to take a day or two to sort your thoughts and maybe write them down to get clearance or make a plan but don't stay alone for too long. Make a timeline and after that If you have good family or friends you trust tell them about it, maybe if it's just about your plans to get more active again/ do certain stuff. Having people to share the same goal with even if it's little is really helpful not just for the process itself but also for the shared success at the end of it.

If you feel like yourself and you friends and family aren't enough to help you or you don't want to burden them, yes go and seek professional help. There's nothing wrong with it, try out therapy, talk to the professionals and see if it suits you or not.

And hey if you want to scream, go scream, if you need to cry, cry, if you feel like smiling , smile be encouraged to show your emotions, give them space to be, don't bottle them up.

 

[unsurehowtomove]

@lost_ange1 thanks for the response . It makes me less feel alone.

I do have people in my life that care and would help if I asked for it but it is so hard to ask, admit what's wrong/what you did wrong and be that vulnerable.

I'll keep on making these small steps.

The first question I can't really answer as I've always came back to a bad or worse state

Yeah, I can understand that. I feel like that may be me too. I have periods of good/ok and then periods of low/depression. This latest low was the worst one that I've ever had.

 

[lost_ange1]

@lost_ange1 thanks for the response . It makes me less feel alone.

I do have people in my life that care and would help if I asked for it but it is so hard to ask, admit what's wrong/what you did wrong and be that vulnerable.

I'll keep on making these small steps.


Yeah, I can understand that. I feel like that may be me too. I have periods of good/ok and then periods of low/depression. This latest low was the worst one that I've ever had.

Maybe it would be easier to seek professional help then. I can understand your feeling but if I've learned one thing it is that showing your weaknesses is the strongest thing you can do.

But small steps are totally fine, as long as your direction is forward you're on the right way!

I hope you'll find out of this low again soon!