
steveholt
ARLDSTE
- Feb 15, 2025
- 95
Feeling so lost today ..just kinda in that place called limbo or the bermuda triangle.. i relapsed ..and by some form of fucked up irony..i tbink that actually drinking is keeping me from CTB i get my old feelings back which sucks as their is a lot of baggage but i dont feel numb anymore after so long sober i was bored and hated life niw i have a perk in my step but with my liver condition it will but me on the bus anyway... but i just wanna go now .. ive travelled and worked around, dine sone amazing and great things i have memories ill never forget (clubbing in the 90s) ive slept with exotic women and seen tbe mountains, the snow and spent time in the sandpit .and now my body is tired been stabbed and took a ping.. but now my body is in pain just as much as my mind is ... cant concentrate and struggle to open the curtains ...i mean wby would i...
Feeling lost
Feeling lost