painfree
Live and let die
- Oct 29, 2024
- 43
I know it's mostly my fault but I'm so tired of feeling like shit. Physically and emotionally. I have no energy which is probably because I don't eat well but I've been like that for over a decade. I was spoiled for 15 years and had someone cooking for me.(was a death not divorce, so it's not bitterness talking) I am self sufficient for anything, except I absolutely hate cooking, plus I hate eating alone. I lie to everyone that I make do but I'm sure I look like shit. I can't afford to not eat or I crash and feel worse. It doesn't help they have me on drugs that make me feel worse. But over time this is just wearing me out and giving me the extra nudge to figure out how so I can ctb faster. As much as I'd prefer sn, might be faster to think of a high spot in the city and just drive. My zopiclone will remove my inhibitions.