StrawberryRed
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- Oct 16, 2024
- 20
Sometimes I feel alot of regret for going through so much work to get out of my depression. Honestly I wish I had just killed myself when I wanted to. Im not really that depressed anymore I think I'm just bleak. I dont have alot of hope for my future, I'm so lazy and unmotivated. Honestly I dont see that changing any time soon. It doesnt help that my passion is environmental science. Everytime I learn more it makes me less motivated honestly. I read articles and studies about the things I actually care about and it makes me REALLY wish I had done it. But I won't, not anytime soon at least, because I'm really just straight up not sad enough. Now all I do is study and work and read more stuff that makes me more upset, I had it right before. My life really ISNT worth living. Not to discourage anyone from getting better, it's just my personal story. I know because of the forum im on not alot of u will relate to this hahah.