Feeling slightly better? Is this the start of recovery?

[Squiddy]

I've noticed I don't get on here as much anymore. Not sure if that's a good thing or not. I do feel like I'm getting slightly better since being in this residential facility for almost 2 months. I do still have my days though where I want to ctb, but they're not as constant. My reasons for wanting to ctb are about the same (feeling incompetent, hard time articulating myself and bad memory), though I don't feel it as strongly since constantly taking my meds and not skipping a dose.

 

[Sensei]

Good to hear, Squiddy. You deserve to get better. Don't worry about your bad memory. It's due to the episodes, which wear on the brain. It's usually temporary, so if your medicines work and you don't get any episodes it will get better.

 

[KleinerWolf]

I've noticed I don't get on here as much anymore. Not sure if that's a good thing or not. I do feel like I'm getting slightly better since being in this residential facility for almost 2 months. I do still have my days though where I want to ctb, but they're not as constant. My reasons for wanting to ctb are about the same (feeling incompetent, hard time articulating myself and bad memory), though I don't feel it as strongly since constantly taking my meds and not skipping a dose.

I'm happy to hear you are feeling better.
It's good that you are not skipping your meds.
It means you are making an effort to yourself, it takes courage, I'm proud of you!

 

[Despondent]

That's awesome news Of course, everyone will have their days and there's no shame in that. When you have your bad days, and even on your good days, we'll always be here for you.

 

[Squiddy]

That's awesome news Of course, everyone will have their days and there's no shame in that. When you have your bad days, and even on your good days, we'll always be here for you.

Thanks :)

 

[FireFox]

I've noticed I don't get on here as much anymore. Not sure if that's a good thing or not. I do feel like I'm getting slightly better since being in this residential facility for almost 2 months. I do still have my days though where I want to ctb, but they're not as constant. My reasons for wanting to ctb are about the same (feeling incompetent, hard time articulating myself and bad memory), though I don't feel it as strongly since constantly taking my meds and not skipping a dose.

@Squiddy
What happend for you to be in a residental facility?

It is wonderful you are starting to feel better.The fact the ctb feelings are not instrusive is good.

The fact you dont post as much is not really a bad thing.

Remember most people on here want to die and are determined to die.

It can to be difficult to recover when being around things like this.
Squiddy you are doing well and keep up. Dont be hard on yourself ok .

 

[JoeFailure]

Stick with it. Momentum is real. That goes for no matter what you believe in, whether it's nothing or spiritually or whatever.

When I was truly in the depths of the most despair last year, I started getting out of it the more and more I just made myself do things. I kind of fell on my face in the job I got but I also learned quite a bit and think I can do better the next time.

As far as this board...it's a tough quandary. I like to come here and try to help people but it also sends me into really negative spirals sometimes. It's not the fault of anyone, but just the reminder of how bad life can be for some people and how helpless it does feel when you can't really help them. You have to have self-care and if it means coming to this board less, then that's what you have to do.

 

[Deleted member 1465]

Been wondering how it all went @Squiddy glad to see you are feeling better, nice to see you posting in recovery.

 

[Squiddy]

@Squiddy
What happend for you to be in a residental facility?

It is wonderful you are starting to feel better.The fact the ctb feelings are not instrusive is good.

The fact you dont post as much is not really a bad thing.

Remember most people on here want to die and are determined to die.

It can to be difficult to recover when being around things like this.
Squiddy you are doing well and keep up. Dont be hard on yourself ok .

I was feeling extremely suicidal and nothing was working for me so my mom sent me to another state and they adjusted my meds and even though I still sometimes feel in a mood to ctb, it's not as often

 

[deadgirlahsatan]

Great news