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EDIT: as of 1/4/24 in the AM - still looking for info on if bird or buckshot would be more ideal. sticking with 00buck right now.
ALSO looking for info on brands. are there better brands than others? more consistent results, better quality? does it matter much? thanks!

Alright y'all. Go time.

I'm getting a Mossberg 88 with a pistol grip stock. 3"

I need recs on the bullet to get
00 Buckshot - I know nothing about guns, just what I have read and I know by name and what was posted only. Apparently buckshots come with pellet quantities - what quantity is best?
Slugs - I know nothing about these either, only that it's essentially a big bullet. Are there hollowpoints? Are these more difficult to use for my method, or more effective?

I'm looking for massive immediate damage to overwhelmingly annihilate the brain stem/medulla/pons location - no pain, no suffering. So whatever totally wrecks my shit, I want the best kind. No concern for gore, I'll be very dead by the time I notice. Any recommendations? :)

My method is just past my teeth, parallel to the tongue, pointed 10-15* upwards.
 
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First see my response on the firearm thread.

At point blank range it doesn't really make any difference what kind of shell you use. The result will be devestating. But #4 buckshot, 00 buckshot, or a slug is usually recommended, but like i said at point blank range any shell is devestating, including tiny birdshot. Maybe tiny birdshot is even the most devestating I don't know. You can look at shotgun tests on Youtube and see what they do.

Do you really really have to do this? If so, God bless you, we are in the same boat.
 
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100%. My affairs are fully in order, I've been committed since even before April. My animals rehomed, almost everything in my house donated and given away, and spent my savings on the remainder of my life. I am ready :)

Thank you for the info!
 
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First see my response on the firearm thread.

At point blank range it doesn't really make any difference what kind of shell you use. The result will be devestating. But #4 buckshot, 00 buckshot, or a slug is usually recommended, but like i said at point blank range any shell is devestating, including tiny birdshot. Maybe tiny birdshot is even the most devestating I don't know. You can look at shotgun tests on Youtube and see what they do.

Do you really really have to do this? If so, God bless you, we are in the same boat.
Don't want to be TMI but birdshot was the way my little brother (23) CTB. Insane amount of small pellets that basically blended his brains inside of his skull, explained by his autopsy. Intra-oral was his method at about the same degree. He was gone instantly. Dunno if this helps.
 
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Don't want to be TMI but birdshot was the way my little brother (23) CTB. Insane amount of small pellets that basically blended his brains inside of his skull, explained by his autopsy. Intra-oral was his method at about the same degree. He was gone instantly. Dunno if this helps.
Not a problem regarding TMI - I just don't want to view gore visually - this is exactly what I want to hear and it reassures me - I am sorry for your loss but I very much appreciate your willingness to share something so personal to help someone else. Thank you.

Do you happen to know the difference in spread between bird and buckshot? Most advisements are for buckshot and to skip bird if you can, but I think it's more for overwhelming damage.
 
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Not a problem regarding TMI - I just don't want to view gore visually - this is exactly what I want to hear and it reassures me - I am sorry for your loss but I very much appreciate your willingness to share something so personal to help someone else. Thank you.

Do you happen to know the difference in spread between bird and buckshot? Most advisements are for buckshot and to skip bird if you can, but I think it's more for overwhelming damage.


There is no spread at point blank range.

Likewise, Dex, I am sorry for your loss, but thank you for the information. I've never seen birdshot recommended but it was my idea that it might actually be the best for this purpose.

I also do not want to see gore. I've seen enough bad stuff on this planet already...
 
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Not a problem regarding TMI - I just don't want to view gore visually - this is exactly what I want to hear and it reassures me - I am sorry for your loss but I very much appreciate your willingness to share something so personal to help someone else. Thank you.

Do you happen to know the difference in spread between bird and buckshot? Most advisements are for buckshot and to skip bird if you can, but I think it's more for overwhelming damage.
Not a problem, he found a way to end things instantly and that's really all any of us can hope for.

From my knowledge, birdshot has more of a wider spread to cover more area. Tiny pellets. Buckshot, much larger caliber pellets and a more focused grouping for a more powerful shot.
Naturally it would be recommended to use buckshot but clearly, birdshot works just as well and is apparently less of a mess if that matters. It did cause both entrance/exit wounds albeit the exit wounds was only 4"x2.5".
 
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Not a problem, he found a way to end things instantly and that's really all any of us can hope for.

From my knowledge, birdshot has more of a wider spread to cover more area. Tiny pellets. Buckshot, much larger caliber pellets and a more focused grouping for a more powerful shot.
Naturally it would be recommended to use buckshot but clearly, birdshot works just as well and is apparently less of a mess if that matters. It did cause both entrance/exit wounds albeit the exit wounds was only 4"x2.5".
The information is priceless to me, thank you. Mess does not matter to me, and more is better because that means it's more damaging - more effective. I'm doing this in the bathroom I think, so it is isolated to a smaller space.

I'll have to get buckshot that has more pellets rather than less if it's available. But either way it should be more than acceptable from what it sounds like.
 
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Not a problem, he found a way to end things instantly and that's really all any of us can hope for.

From my knowledge, birdshot has more of a wider spread to cover more area. Tiny pellets. Buckshot, much larger caliber pellets and a more focused grouping for a more powerful shot.
Naturally it would be recommended to use buckshot but clearly, birdshot works just as well and is apparently less of a mess if that matters. It did cause both entrance/exit wounds albeit the exit wounds was only 4"x2.5".


It takes quite a distance for shotgun pellets to start spreading. At point blank range everything will be just the size of the hole at the end of the gun barrel, that is the size of the shell size itself.
The information is priceless to me, thank you. Mess does not matter to me, and more is better because that means it's more damaging - more effective. I'm doing this in the bathroom I think, so it is isolated to a smaller space.

I'll have to get buckshot that has more pellets rather than less if it's available. But either way it should be more than acceptable from what it sounds like.


Birdshot not buckshot. You can start this at about 10:30

 
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I'm just repeating what was found on my brothers external autopsy as far as exit wounds and damage.

It just seems like no matter what kind of bullets you use, a shotgun is gonna work period. A small note: buckshot is liable to pierce walls and in a small bathroom could endanger others in the household. Birdshot will not.
 
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Devestating birdshot. See the first comment under the video.

 
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I'm just repeating what was found on my brothers external autopsy as far as exit wounds and damage.

It just seems like no matter what kind of bullets you use, a shotgun is gonna work period. A small note: buckshot is liable to pierce walls and in a small bathroom could endanger others in the household. Birdshot will not.
I live on the external part of a complex and the direction it will be pointed will not risk anyone. I live alone as well.
 
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I live on the external part of a complex and the direction it will be pointed will not risk anyone. I live alone as well.

I hope you have a painless, seamless transition to the other side should you choose to go. 🖤
 
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I hope you have a painless, seamless transition to the other side should you choose to go. 🖤
Thank you so much. I hope for the same, I've been feeling very overwhelmed waiting so long and I am bone tired. Ready to start fresh after a rest for this body of mine.
 
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EDIT: as of 1/4/24 in the AM - still looking for info on if bird or buckshot would be more ideal. sticking with 00buck right now.
ALSO looking for info on brands. are there better brands than others? more consistent results, better quality? does it matter much? thanks!

Alright y'all. Go time.

I'm getting a Mossberg 88 with a pistol grip stock. 3"

I need recs on the bullet to get
00 Buckshot - I know nothing about guns, just what I have read and I know by name and what was posted only. Apparently buckshots come with pellet quantities - what quantity is best?
Slugs - I know nothing about these either, only that it's essentially a big bullet. Are there hollowpoints? Are these more difficult to use for my method, or more effective?

I'm looking for massive immediate damage to overwhelmingly annihilate the brain stem/medulla/pons location - no pain, no suffering. So whatever totally wrecks my shit, I want the best kind. No concern for gore, I'll be very dead by the time I notice. Any recommendations? :)

My method is just past my teeth, parallel to the tongue, pointed 10-15* upwards.
i wish u a peaceful exit. much love and escape from this shitty thing we call life. ill be there with you soon afterwards when i get my hands on the smith and wesson. i guess ill have to be normal and keep working to show them im not a looney before i can get my hands on the gun but oh well... my time is soon i guss ill enjoy what little i have left

got to be smart about it as that is my way of CTBING also, not sure about peaceful but for both of us, i can guarantee certain. may our souls rest in peace. update us please

your worth it my friend but i know, i know and im the last person to talk you out of this because i know this shitty life oh too well but i wish you peace in your decision
EDIT: as of 1/4/24 in the AM - still looking for info on if bird or buckshot would be more ideal. sticking with 00buck right now.
ALSO looking for info on brands. are there better brands than others? more consistent results, better quality? does it matter much? thanks!

Alright y'all. Go time.

I'm getting a Mossberg 88 with a pistol grip stock. 3"

I need recs on the bullet to get
00 Buckshot - I know nothing about guns, just what I have read and I know by name and what was posted only. Apparently buckshots come with pellet quantities - what quantity is best?
Slugs - I know nothing about these either, only that it's essentially a big bullet. Are there hollowpoints? Are these more difficult to use for my method, or more effective?

I'm looking for massive immediate damage to overwhelmingly annihilate the brain stem/medulla/pons location - no pain, no suffering. So whatever totally wrecks my shit, I want the best kind. No concern for gore, I'll be very dead by the time I notice. Any recommendations? :)

My method is just past my teeth, parallel to the tongue, pointed 10-15* upwards.
your using a shotgun, it doesnt matter youll be long gone man rest in peace
EDIT: as of 1/4/24 in the AM - still looking for info on if bird or buckshot would be more ideal. sticking with 00buck right now.
ALSO looking for info on brands. are there better brands than others? more consistent results, better quality? does it matter much? thanks!

Alright y'all. Go time.

I'm getting a Mossberg 88 with a pistol grip stock. 3"

I need recs on the bullet to get
00 Buckshot - I know nothing about guns, just what I have read and I know by name and what was posted only. Apparently buckshots come with pellet quantities - what quantity is best?
Slugs - I know nothing about these either, only that it's essentially a big bullet. Are there hollowpoints? Are these more difficult to use for my method, or more effective?

I'm looking for massive immediate damage to overwhelmingly annihilate the brain stem/medulla/pons location - no pain, no suffering. So whatever totally wrecks my shit, I want the best kind. No concern for gore, I'll be very dead by the time I notice. Any recommendations? :)

My method is just past my teeth, parallel to the tongue, pointed 10-15* upwards.
slugs will by far be the most lethal btw to answer ur question somewhat
 
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"your using a shotgun, it doesnt matter youll be long gone man rest in peace

slugs will by far be the most lethal btw to answer ur question somewhat"



The last thing I want to be is argumentative here, and I agree with your first sentence, but not with the second. At point black range both a slug and buckshot or birdshot form a pretty much solid mass weighing about an ounce with the same diameter, .729 inches in the case of a 12 gauge The birdshot tho, depending on its size, might have 150 little pellets in it that could break apart and spread out on impact and scramble things up even more, so I'm leaning towards that now. The videos, and comments under them, that I posted above give some evidence to that assertion. I'm thinking now that birdshot might make you even more dead than a solid slug. :)

PS I know more about handguns than shotguns.
 
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"your using a shotgun, it doesnt matter youll be long gone man rest in peace

slugs will by far be the most lethal btw to answer ur question somewhat"



The last thing I want to be is argumentative here, and I agree with your first sentence, but not with the second. At point black range both a slug and buckshot or birdshot form a pretty much solid mass weighing about an ounce with the same diameter, .729 inches in the case of a 12 gauge The birdshot tho, depending on its size, might have 150 little pellets in it that could break apart and spread out on impact and scramble things up even more, so I'm leaning towards that now. The videos, and comments under them, that I posted above give some evidence to that assertion. I'm thinking now that birdshot might make you even more dead than a solid slug. :)

PS I know more about handguns than shotguns.
fair points you made indeed
 
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