
thronesick
i am a hive walking
- Jan 2, 2025
- 57
soo i'm gonna jump off my apartment building today.. it's a surreal feeling. most of the day i've been deleting photos and spending time with family i'm relieved but i won't know how it feels to be at that ledge i'm scared i won't be consciously able to jump and i won't have a lot of time to do it as the alarm will go off. i wrote my note and i'm gonna rid of few things but idk i'm scared i'd be too scared to jump and i don't wanna go to the psych ward. i have to go around 2 am EST and i obviously can't talk to anyone i'm close to about it