Final plan and todos (hanging)

[AreWeWinning]

This is my final plan. It's a bit long, but if anyone reads it through, and has any thoughts or suggestions, please comment! I would appreciate any feedback.

The basic plan, in short:

• In the evening, set a scheduled email to my family, to be delivered the next day, during the day. If I'm unable to go through with the plan, I'll cancel the email in the morning, before it's sent.
• I'll have a handwritten note on my body too, stating that it's a suicide, and with instructions for who to contact. So, my family will be contacted either by the scheduled email, or by the police, based on the note I'll have with me.
• At around 2:00-2:30 AM, go into the woods, not far from my house, and do the act at around 3:00 AM. Method: Full suspension hanging. My chosen location is near a small trail, and has very low traffic during the day, and no traffic whatsoever at night.

I have thought about doing it at a completely hidden location too, further from any trails, but my fear is if the scheduled email doesn't go through, and no-one finds me, then my body will just hang there for who knows how long, and I wouldn't want that. And the location I've chosen is still safe enough, especially at night.

My goodbye note will be in the scheduled email, and a copy will be printed and left at my house too. So, either way, they'll get it. The note is brief and basic, but I felt like it's just common courtesy, and I didn't want to leave without saying a word. Leaving a short note just feels right.

So, that's the plan in short. In addition, I'll also do the below preparations during the last few days, or on the last day. In fact, some of these, I have already done.

In addition to my goodbye letter, I'll prepare some other documents too:

• I'll leave notes at my house, which will have all the necessary information regarding my assets, bank accounts, my property etc. Things that might be useful during the inheritance process.
• I've made a will, and a copy of it will be at my house, and another will be registered with the Central Registry of Wills (There is such a thing in my country).

Cleaning:

• Do some cleaning during the last few days. Hoover, tidy up a bit, throw away food etc.
• On the last day, turn off the main switches for gas, electricity and water.
• No need for everything to be immaculate and spotless, but leave things in good order.

Financials, money:

• Cancel all direct debits, automatic payments and online subscriptions, so any services I use will be automatically cancelled by the time the next payment is due.
• Lock / freeze my credit card (with the option to re-enable it if I can't go through with the plan).

Privacy:

• Set phone SIM card to ask for PIN.
• Lock my phone with a passcode and switch it off on the last day, before I go. (A switched off phone is harder to break / unlock.)
• PC and hard drives are fully encrypted, inaccessible.
• Shred all paper notes, diaries and those sort of things with a paper shredder and discard everything.
• Delete social media accounts. (There is usually a grace period, so re-activation is possible for a couple of weeks if I fail.)
• Set Gmail account to go inactive and self delete after 3 months.

Other things to keep in mind:

• Do a test run. Go to the location, at the planned time (3:00 AM), tie the rope and everything. Go through everything exactly the way as if I was doing it live, so that I get familiar with the process.
• Test the rope and the setup thoroughly whether it's strong enough. Go to the location, tie the rope, use the knots I plan to use, tie a noose close to the ground, step in it with my foot, and bounce on it with my full body-weight.
• By the time I'm doing it live, I should have an exact, written down, step-by-step plan of what needs to be done on the very last day, up to the point I jump. I should be able to go through that plan mechanically, point-by-point, without thinking too much. At the time, I'll be under stress, and I won't have the mental capacity to make complex decisions, so this is the way.
• Don't take my phone with me and don't call anyone for any reason on the last day or before the attempt. It's a mistake, and will likely result in a failed attempt. (The only exception is if I change my mind, and don't want to do it anymore.)
• Don't drink alcohol, don't take any medications or drugs. Have a clear head, and be well rested on the day and before the attempt. It means more willpower, more mental energy, and higher chance of success.
• It's a known phenomenon that near death, people can hear voices, have hallucinations, see deceased loved ones etc. If this happens, know that it's just my mind playing tricks on me, and don't be scared or surprised. (A bit of a stretch, and has never happened to me, but want to be prepared for everything.)

So, that's about it. If you've read it all, thank you!

 

[vinlander]

There's not much to add, to be honest, I was typing some suggestions after reading the first few paragraphs, but then I scrolled down to finish reading and you already thought of them, the schedule is great and it's cool that you planned everything, I hope everything goes well for you

 

[AreWeWinning]

There's not much to add, to be honest, I was typing some suggestions after reading the first few paragraphs, but then I scrolled down to finish reading and you already thought of them, the schedule is great and it's cool that you planned everything, I hope everything goes well for you

Thanks for reading, and thanks for your comment!

 

[Raven2]

This is the most organised plan I have seen on here!
I didnt know there was a registry of wills I just googled it and my country has it too, very useful to know.

 

[JesiBel]

It sounds like a perfect plan, very detailed. I'll save this post for myself as a guide; I chose that method too.

It might be a good idea to keep your ID card (or a paper copy) in your pocket, so it's easier for people who find you later..

 

[AreWeWinning]

This is the most organised plan I have seen on here!
I didnt know there was a registry of wills I just googled it and my country has it too, very useful to know.

Thanks, I'm trying... I try not to overdo it though. I mean, the planning and organising. Sometimes, it's difficult to find the balance and not to turn it into procrastination. On the other hand, I plan to do it only once, so I should better get it right.

It sounds like a perfect plan, very detailed. I'll save this post for myself as a guide; I chose that method too.

It might be a good idea to keep your ID card (or a paper copy) in your pocket, so it's easier for people who find you later..

Yeah, I saw your post on in the Hanging megathread regarding your setup. And I have an idea for you too how to make it better with the ropes... I might reply to your post at some point... (edit: I did)

Regarding the ID... I forgot to add it in the original post, but in fact, I'm including my personal details (like name, date of birth etc.) in the note that I'll have on my body, so police can look me up. I might take a photocopy of my ID too, at least the part which doesn't have my address on it. I've decided against taking my original ID, because I don't know who'll find it, and it's a risk for identity theft. Pretty low chance, but still. Another thing to keep in mind: If your ID has your address on it, and you have your keys with you too, that's a security risk too, if the wrong person finds them.

 

[rosaemundi]

Aren't you scared of prolonged agony? Also, in order to preserve your dignity, remember to try and avoid leakage (in front and behind. specially behind).

 

[JesiBel]

Aren't you scared of prolonged agony? Also, in order to preserve your dignity, remember to try and avoid leakage (in front and behind. specially behind).

Prolonged agony? You should research the method further and stop spreading negative information and messages. If it's not your preferred method, move on.

And about "dignity," you make me laugh. All corpses will relax their sphincters when they die, it's normal. It might be best to go to the bathroom first, not eat beforehand. And use an incontinence pad.

 

[AreWeWinning]

Aren't you scared of prolonged agony? Also, in order to preserve your dignity, remember to try and avoid leakage (in front and behind. specially behind).

No, I'm not scared. Just a little bit, but that's normal. It should be quick, if done right. I did some tests and experiments, and I can pass out quickly. Takes about 5-10 seconds. Out of all the methods I've considered, I find this to be the least scary. And every method is painful or uncomfortable, just in a different way.

Leakage, dignity... Good point, and I thought about it too. The front is easy to take care of. The back, not so much, because we can't go on command. I'm not too concerned though. I won't be there to be ashamed of it. I thought about fasting, but I'm not sure it's worth it. It would make me feel low on energy when I most need it. Coffee, or cigarettes, or eating a bunch of glucose / dextrose can also make people go to the bathroom, so I might do that, I don't know. Maybe I just won't care.

 

[rosaemundi]

No, I'm not scared. Just a little bit, but that's normal. It should be quick, if done right. I did some tests and experiments, and I can pass out quickly. Takes about 5-10 seconds. Out of all the methods I've considered, I find this to be the least scary. And every method is painful or uncomfortable, just in a different way.

Leakage, dignity... Good point, and I thought about it too. The front is easy to take care of. The back, not so much, because we can't go on command. I'm not too concerned though. I won't be there to be ashamed of it. I thought about fasting, but I'm not sure it's worth it. It would make me feel low on energy when I most need it. Coffee, or cigarettes, or eating a bunch of glucose / dextrose can also make people go to the bathroom, so I might do that, I don't know. Maybe I just won't care.

I don't know for sure, but I heard that morticians in certain places stick cotton puffs in orifices, as a simple plug.

 

[AreWeWinning]

I don't know for sure, but I heard that morticians in certain places stick cotton puffs in orifices, as a simple plug.

Oh, I'll definitely not do that. But thanks for the idea :D

 

[baberty]

Sounds like you have it all worked out. I hope my plan is as good, once I decide on my method. Vaya con Dios, my friend!

 

[Lo$t95]

So similar I could have written this myself. We are literally in the exact same place right now…

 

[opheliaoveragain]

sounds well thought out and solid.