Finding the light in my darkness I've discovered is by trying to help others find their light out of their darkness.

[DeathIsJustAJourney]

I've been in the darkness for so long it's nearly drove me completely insane,always full of anger,resentment,hate,hopelessness,pain,loss,unable to grieve for those I've lost I love,and many more bad feelings accumulated over the decades,but since joing this site I've found that trying to help others find their light outta the darkness and possibly save their life has given me a glimmer of hope and helps me deal with my problems a bit better,so with that being said,for those who have no one to turn to if you feel like a chat just comment below on how your feeling and I'll reply with my reasons why there's possibly a way out of your darkness and maybes I can help u outta it as I'm a good listener,good advisor and I think I'm good at helping others find their self worth,if it's not for you that's fine too I just pray you find your light in the darkness as I wish my little brother did too as he took his own life just before Christmas just gone and the devastation it's caused in my head no one will truelly understand,it's a pain I will never fully recover from and it made me just want to die to be with him but that would devastate my mum far too much so I gotta be strong,searched for my light outta the darkness and think this is how I achieve it plus I've always loved to help others worse off than me as strongly believe everyone should strive to be this way in life to stop so much suffering going on in the world,good luck I pray yous find your light,God bless all

 

[SecretDissociation]

Condolences and regards to your brother, you, and your family.

I have the same sentiment, most of the time. I want a job where I can help and inspire others, and posting and answering questions and playing games makes me feel somewhat fulfilled. In real life, it is often tiring because when you have people lean on you, you have to accept the fact that people won't let you lean on them too and that makes me a bit upset sometimes.

I'm glad you can find the light within yourself, by giving light to others! <3

 

[DeathIsJustAJourney]

Condolences and regards to your brother, you, and your family.

I have the same sentiment, most of the time. I want a job where I can help and inspire others, and posting and answering questions and playing games makes me feel somewhat fulfilled. In real life, it is often tiring because when you have people lean on you, you have to accept the fact that people won't let you lean on them too and that makes me a bit upset sometimes.

I'm glad you can find the light within yourself, by giving light to others! <3

Thank you it means a lot as my brother was an amazing person who just never realised it and I so wish I talked to him a lot more as he lived in a different city to me so it hurts I didn't try harder,and that's a good way to be brother,I get you on needing to lean on someone too,so if you ever need to talk about anything at all,u can lean on me in here and I'll be happy to try advise help or offer moral support in any way shape or form that I can,it makes it so much better when there's more that can do this to help each other find the light and I pray you find yours too,and thanks,I've always liked helping others any chance I can,it makes you feel like your doing good in a world that needs a lot of it given out so I try my best which also let's me crack on with you if u ever need as any support is good support no matter where it comes from,so hope I can help you when you need it and much respect to you for being like minded on helping others like me,we are very far and few between in the world,so it's good when I bump into others who feel the same way

 

[SecretDissociation]

I've often been told, that nothing I could have done, and nothing I am thinking I could've done is worth my time in grievance. Although, my sentiments on grievance are a bit lighter, I think of my friend and think, oh how I could've invited her to hangout with me more, messaged me more, been kind to her more before her passing (which wasn't suicide but natural causes). I am sure your brother knows how much you loved, cared and wanted to be a good brother to him. I can certaintly tell from just your written words.

It is a bit sad that we are very far and few in this world. However, every little bit of help that inspires happiness can inspire a seedling to grow its' own forest. I'll keep you in my mind as me in yours. <3. And if I do need a leaning shoulder, I will remember you.

 

[DeathIsJustAJourney]

I feel for you on your friends passing,it's the absolute worst thing in the world to go through,I am the last living person out of all my good friends so I know how it feels to lose them and it's right what you were told,nothing you did or or thought you could do would have changed your friends passing at all,all we can do in these situations is try and find a way to cope with their loss,I do it by speaking of the good times and sometimes the not so good times with passed freinds and it does help but I severely miss them all so much and I guess you do too with your friends so I hope your managing to find a way to cope with it,if you do struggle with it you can tell me about some of the good times you had with her if it helps you in anyway as it's good to talk about them to keep our memorys strong and because it's good to talk,and yeah I hope he did know,I have another younger brother who has said some pretty nasty things since then and it's took all my strength not to lash out on him over it as it did shock me,but I choose to ignore his words as I try my best to avoid violence in life now as it serves no real justified purpose in the long run And yeah it is,hopefully between the both of us we can inspire more people to try and help others in a like minded way as good deeds have a funny way of rubbing off on others who witness it so they then repeat it at later dates with others they come across,and I strongly believe it's needed as there is too much self centredness a lack of empathy and sympathy for strangers and a general unwillingness to help those worse off than themselves in the world,in the 80s it was a very very different world altogether,everyone so pleasant respectful and helpful to each other,I blame governments for the way the world has turned out,they actively allow websites to promote share and spread hate across the world creating prejudices,racial&religious hatred aswell as other things when they could so easily shutdown those websites within minutes of them being proven hate platforms,it's not good at all,and thats good im here anytime you need to speak,i will be on most days to check my replys and such as i think its a good idea i try help others if it also helps me too and I'll remember u too <3 if I need to get things off my chest that has me heading back into the darkness as it's not a very nice place to be and everyone should have someone they can speak to to try and help them heal as it can only make the world a better place once enough people get doing it as it always has a domino effect where more and more strive to be like that after realising it makes them feel good to help others as I think a lot don't know this and that if they did they would strive to be better at doing it,so a little nudge with witnessing it can go a long way,well I pray it does in anyway