YukiFox
Pastel demon
- Dec 8, 2018
- 320
Today I was fired for my company. They don't alleged a mistake or flaw about me, only told me that my company will be in financial jeopardy in next months. I worked in customer service in a used cars website.
See, it's the second bad news for me in less than a month, since my mom passed away February 28. So my anger and worries worsened for my immediate future.
Since I accepted myself as transgender, I found a possible reason for my depression and hopelessness as a male, reasons that triggered me the CTB desires in the past. From now, I really want to recover, but the world and personal circumstances doesn't help.
Since I became unemployed I can't afford my therapy for aiming a supervised gender transition, as I don't want to self medicate or anything. Because I'm kinda "masculine" - deep voice and hairy legs - I had the hope to use my medical insurance of company to cost that. Now my gender transition, at least hormonally, will be in hold.
I really want to continue in this world and give me the opportunity to live as transgender woman a plentiful existence, despite the challenges of being a trans person in our society. I don't want to look back, but seriously, why that bad sequence of events? Whatever, I want to live. But this circumstances makes the CTB ghost knock to my door again.
See, it's the second bad news for me in less than a month, since my mom passed away February 28. So my anger and worries worsened for my immediate future.
Since I accepted myself as transgender, I found a possible reason for my depression and hopelessness as a male, reasons that triggered me the CTB desires in the past. From now, I really want to recover, but the world and personal circumstances doesn't help.
Since I became unemployed I can't afford my therapy for aiming a supervised gender transition, as I don't want to self medicate or anything. Because I'm kinda "masculine" - deep voice and hairy legs - I had the hope to use my medical insurance of company to cost that. Now my gender transition, at least hormonally, will be in hold.
I really want to continue in this world and give me the opportunity to live as transgender woman a plentiful existence, despite the challenges of being a trans person in our society. I don't want to look back, but seriously, why that bad sequence of events? Whatever, I want to live. But this circumstances makes the CTB ghost knock to my door again.