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Failed.Angel

Failed.Angel

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Oct 11, 2024
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I also don't. Even after all the crappy I go thought, I don't even remember or think about this stuff.
The nickname is just because.
So I was thinking about who shares this with me.

How are you doing? How is your resolve or situation going?
 
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SomewhereAlongThe

SomewhereAlongThe

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May 17, 2024
128
Honestly, it's going horribly. I can't seem to find a solid purpose in life. My genetics are piss poor, so I don't have the ability or talent to do what I want to. My passion has been trampled on. Right now all I'm thinking about is if I have a big enough heart to just serve others. I should know if I do, but my autism makes my emotions hard to feel and identify.
 
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ijustwishtodie

ijustwishtodie

death will be my ultimate bliss
Oct 29, 2023
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I'm just waiting in misery and in pain until I find a way that can allow me to reach permanent non existence earlier
 
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Failed.Angel

Failed.Angel

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Oct 11, 2024
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Honestly, it's going horribly. I can't seem to find a solid purpose in life. My genetics are piss poor, so I don't have the ability or talent to do what I want to. My passion has been trampled on. Right now all I'm thinking about is if I have a big enough heart to just serve others. I should know if I do, but my autism makes my emotions hard to feel and identify.
That is very kind of you to consider others besides your struggles you are good one friend. I also wish I had done more for others have done some good behind that not necessary anyone needed to know I did.

I'm just waiting in misery and in pain until I find a way that can allow me to reach permanent non existence earlier
I feel you, I often can't wait to just return to the ground and just stop worrying about my failed life.
 
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Forever Sleep

Earned it we have...
May 4, 2022
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I'm more on the fence but leaning towards atheism in terms of belief or rather, non belief. In terms of living, it hasn't made much difference to me. We weren't a strictly religious family. Just, vaguely spiritual. In terms of dying, I wish I was fully atheist but, I'm glad I'm not religious. I'd be worrying a lot more about judgement, potential punishment, hell or even heaven to be honest. Any form of afterlife doesn't appeal at all. I'm really hoping there's nothing. For me in any case. Ideally, I hope everyone gets what they wish for.
 
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Anhaedra

Anhaedra

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May 5, 2024
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I dont believe in god or an afterlife even tho I was raised in a strictly religious family. Everyone around me gets their sense of purpose through religion and I have to pretend that I'm one of them, but deep down I dont believe in anything and I wish I could seize existing once I vanish off the face of the earth.
 
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pointblank

pointblank

OTW to CTB
Dec 12, 2024
84
Honestly, it's going horribly. I can't seem to find a solid purpose in life. My genetics are piss poor, so I don't have the ability or talent to do what I want to. My passion has been trampled on. Right now all I'm thinking about is if I have a big enough heart to just serve others. I should know if I do, but my autism makes my emotions hard to feel and identify.
I relate to this so much. My DNA in terms of IQ and intelligence is fucked. My quality of life is poor because of this. I've had enough of this poor QOL hence buying a ticket to CTB.
 
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Roadrunner

Roadrunner

Student
Mar 18, 2024
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I too believe in nothing after death. I don't want to CTB with hopes of something better, it's just to end this mental torture of existing.
 
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FuneralCry

FuneralCry

Just wanting some peace
Sep 24, 2020
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I could never do, I just believe existence to be the most terrible, tragic mistake that is ultimately so futile that just causes so much suffering all for the sake of it, I see existence as an abomination that just causes problems there was never a need for with no limit as to how much agony one can feel until all is forgotten about in death anyway, personally I'd always prefer to die than suffer in this torturous, futile existence. I believe death to be nothing more than an eternal, dreamless sleep where all is finally forgotten and this existence I never would have chosen is no longer my problem, personally I just want non-existence, I'd always prefer to painlessly die than be enslaved in this reality just to die in agony from old age, for me personally ceasing to exist truly is the only peace.
 
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PhilosopherInAV0id

PhilosopherInAV0id

The Reaper of Self, Amid the Silence
Jan 28, 2024
38
The religion I currently follow technically believes in the afterlife, but whether it's real or not, the things I've experienced aren't enough to persuade me to care too much about it. After all I've seen and done, I could care less about what could be waiting, so get me out already.
 
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timorousTruant

timorousTruant

Azoidant
Nov 18, 2022
75
God, for the sake of my sanity, I have to believe there's nothing after this.
 
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Malfunction

Malfunction

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Jul 27, 2024
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Not sure how to put it. I don't believe a singular ruling entity created everything. Rather the universe created all living things. When we die, we return to the energy from which we came. Like Star Wars I suppose.
 
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etme

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Dec 13, 2024
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Same! I've been one to question religion ever since I was young and only classified my self as an atheist once I turned of age. So don't really believe in that stuff, don't hate on ppl who do tho :b

But as for how I'm going, honestly believing in religion/ not believing in religion doesn't really matter to me, maybe it might have affected my thoughts to CTB if I was the type to hold on to faith and what not, but it just doesn't matter anymore.

I'm at a point of total dissociation and honestly just waiting for my plan to set in motion
Same! I've been one to question religion ever since I was young and only classified my self as an atheist once I turned of age. So don't really believe in that stuff, don't hate on ppl who do tho :b

But as for how I'm going, honestly believing in religion/ not believing in religion doesn't really matter to me, maybe it might have affected my thoughts to CTB if I was the type to hold on to faith and what not, but it just doesn't matter anymore.

I'm at a point of total dissociation and honestly just waiting for my plan to set in motion
Same! I've been one to question religion ever since I was young and only classified my self as an atheist once I turned of age. So don't really believe in that stuff, don't hate on ppl who do tho :b

But as for how I'm going, honestly believing in religion/ not believing in religion doesn't really matter to me, maybe it might have affected my thoughts to CTB if I was the type to hold on to faith and what not, but it just doesn't matter anymore.

I'm at a point of total dissociation and honestly just waiting for my plan to set in motion
 
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Unknown21

Unknown21

The past never dies. Forever 22.
Apr 25, 2023
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Honestly, it's going horribly. I can't seem to find a solid purpose in life. My genetics are piss poor, so I don't have the ability or talent to do what I want to. My passion has been trampled on. Right now all I'm thinking about is if I have a big enough heart to just serve others. I should know if I do, but my autism makes my emotions hard to feel and identify.
Couldn't say it any better.
 
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Failed.Angel

Failed.Angel

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I'm more on the fence but leaning towards atheism in terms of belief or rather, non belief. In terms of living, it hasn't made much difference to me. We weren't a strictly religious family. Just, vaguely spiritual. In terms of dying, I wish I was fully atheist but, I'm glad I'm not religious. I'd be worrying a lot more about judgement, potential punishment, hell or even heaven to be honest. Any form of afterlife doesn't appeal at all. I'm really hoping there's nothing. For me in any case. Ideally, I hope everyone gets what they wish for.
I don't judge anybody beliefs, but certainly is freeing to not worry about the downside of every religion. The times I remember about religion in general is a annoying neighbour that stops me (but I am avoiding her recently at all costs) and to other people. But besides that, I honestly don't even remember. When I do remember, I think about the animals, how brutal are their life and they can spawn and die in a second from a Zebra escaping a Lion or Hippopotamus that decided to kill both and that will be it.
I recognize the power of community religion build, at the same time the power of fear.
I could never do, I just believe existence to be the most terrible, tragic mistake that is ultimately so futile that just causes so much suffering all for the sake of it, I see existence as an abomination that just causes problems there was never a need for with no limit as to how much agony one can feel until all is forgotten about in death anyway, personally I'd always prefer to die than suffer in this torturous, futile existence. I believe death to be nothing more than an eternal, dreamless sleep where all is finally forgotten and this existence I never would have chosen is no longer my problem, personally I just want non-existence, I'd always prefer to painlessly die than be enslaved in this reality just to die in agony from old age, for me personally ceasing to exist truly is the only peace.
I feel you, at the same time I think existing is just random we feel more pain or happiness because our minds developed too much compared to other animals. I envy who could find peace or success in their life or simple don't think about the difficult mind stuff. In the end we are just the defective result of two people fucking and I think we got dar deep in the complex side of mind... Painless death all the way if I could choose too...
I dont believe in god or an afterlife even tho I was raised in a strictly religious family. Everyone around me gets their sense of purpose through religion and I have to pretend that I'm one of them, but deep down I dont believe in anything and I wish I could seize existing once I vanish off the face of the earth.
A religious family is a nightmare I have seemed to many. I feel the same when my life ends.
I too believe in nothing after death. I don't want to CTB with hopes of something better, it's just to end this mental torture of existing.
I completely agree with you on my case,

if was to have something better should be now.
God, for the sake of my sanity, I have to believe there's nothing after this.
Hallelujah brother ahahahaha I couldn't resist, forgive me. But truly, fuck after this nightmare.
if was to have something better should be now.
Not sure how to put it. I don't believe a singular ruling entity created everything. Rather the universe created all living things. When we die, we return to the energy from which we came. Like Star Wars I suppose.
Your definition reminds me of Final Fantasy VII life stream deal and seems good
I could never do, I just believe existence to be the most terrible, tragic mistake that is ultimately so futile that just causes so much suffering all for the sake of it, I see existence as an abomination that just causes problems there was never a need for with no limit as to how much agony one can feel until all is forgotten about in death anyway, personally I'd always prefer to die than suffer in this torturous, futile existence. I believe death to be nothing more than an eternal, dreamless sleep where all is finally forgotten and this existence I never would have chosen is no longer my problem, personally I just want non-existence, I'd always prefer to painlessly die than be enslaved in this reality just to die in agony from old age, for me personally ceasing to exist truly is the only peace.
 
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