GalacticWarrior's weekly diary

[NeoN0va]

Heyaaa, Ive decided that in order to feel somewhat less lonely and forsaken, I'll create a diary. I've always wanted to make one, and since Im now in my recovery stage, I believe that such a diary will be beneficial! Ill try to add a post to this diary every sunday, it will mainly be a summary of my whole week, funny events that have happened during it, and sometimes a longer story/thought/vent I'd want to share to this amazing community!

To start off by today, nothing that special really happened; I've been to HS, sat for like 8 hours, had some psychological lecture, listened to music A LOT, played some games and now I'm going to sleep! Next week will be way funnier as Ill get to hangout more with my friends. Goodnight everyone and see you sunday!

 

[ma0]

Glad to see things are looking up for you! I hope that eventually you can reach a point where you can fully resume a healthy life, and might not even need this site anymore.

I might read the next few entries, but if I don't I'm sure the rest of SaSu will enjoy them.

 

[NeoN0va]

I swear to god if I see this manipulator's face one more time I will genuienly crash out, let loose of the steering wheel and go full on harass her. She's took advantage of me, acted as if she cared for me for those 3 years, as if she actually wanted to help me, as if she wanted to save my life; but no, she's just a fucking manipulator, so good in fact that she manipulated so many other people. I want to put an end to her shitty attitude, tell her right in the face everything I think of her ever since we broke up, every single fucking thing - how she hid away from me that she was being sexually abused, that she is mentally unstable, that she's a fucking manipulator because of who my mental has gotten so significantly worse. It wouldnt be this bad. My mental was bad before, but never this bad. Its because of her and HER only. Ill try to going to sleep now, but if I do see her face tomorrow once again then im not letting all that hatred boil in me and act as if its nonexistent - fuck, Im not even letting try to relief myself by biting my hand so hardly that i still have the bite marks after 7 hours, and im definitely not putting my music volume on max again. Fuck her and fuck whoever adores her, she will forever be the worst.

Also, I know that everything I say hear might seem rude, but the amount of pain she's caused me and others is unimaginable.
I fucking miss her.

 

[NeoN0va]

I nearly forgot to post, but here I am!

Galacticwarrior777's weekly diary, Week #1:

Monday: I barely remember what I've done on monday. It was a regular studying day, nothing funny happened. Kinda boring, but I didn't think of anything negative that day, so it's a pass.

Tuesday: There was one fun thing that happened, and it's that there was a false alarm at my HS. We weren't evacuated, yet all the media lied lmfao. Besides that nothing that fun happened, we've had some mental lectures about discrimination and stuff like that. I guess I can let that day pass.

Wednesday: Nothing fun, studying day, didn't think about anything negative so PASS.

Thursday: Fun ass day because of volleyball. Ive set for my friend and he spiked so hard the opponent team was shocked. W day, W PASS.

Friday: Nothing that fun, I've left my lectures 4 hours early due to personal stuff. Didn't think of anything negative so PASS.

Saturday: Mixed day. First half was alright, second half was mixed. My parents argued, ive become some sort of a mediator for that argument, then they no longer argued and I went to sleep due to being full ass cold smh. I don't want to pass that day as I thought about some negative stuff a lot.

Sunday(today): Boring day, played on the pc, watched some anime, ate some good ass food, that's it. Nothing more happened. I could say that my self-esteem fell down a bit for today due to failing to maintain a conservation, so I won't pass today.

Overall 5/7 days were alright, 2/7 were failed.

Im hoping that this new week will be funnier and better, as Ill get to hang out with my friends some more. I'll try to keep you updated. I'm also planning on buying ashwagandha, but I'll see with that.

Goodnight,
Galacticwarrior777​

 

[NeoN0va]

I don't know if I'll be able to post an entry on sunday, so I decided to do it today.

Galacticwarrior777's weekly diary, week #2.

I've been feeling super mixed this week so far. One side of me wants to stay happy and feels happy, but the other one got hit with nostalgia and another wave of memories. They're making me feel so, so lonely. I feel as if those memories happened yesterday, just to realise it has already been 3-4 years. Fuck me.

Im planning to meet with my friend tomorrow so that I can vent to him, and just hopefully I don't tell him too much. I want to take some of these emotions off of my shoulders, as it's getting heavy as fuck (I feel like I want to cry so much since monday, but I just physically can't). I kinda changed my mind on the old times, as Ive said in my earlier posts that they weren't really that good and that it was all just an illusion, but now, after a bit more time of thinking it thoroughly I can say that those were actually good times. It's just 2024 that was fucking wack, not those old times. My girl best friend changed in 2024, she used to manipulate others back then but not me. It's in 2024 that she started acting so weirdly against me too.

I just hope this year is better than 2024. I want this year to be better. I NEED this year to be BETTER. Either way, it's time for sleep.

Goodnight,
Galacticwarrior777​

 

[NeoN0va]

Update to my diary:
I'm on a school trip and there's this girl that is also on recovery. She's bitten me 4 times so hard that I have insane bite marks, but it was so unstressing, calming and relaxing. She seems cool, but feels so bipolar and shit. Hope she doesnt do anything stupid

 

[NeoN0va]

She has trouble recovering, bad therapist results.

 

[NeoN0va]

This is how I currently feel. Idk will I post anything here anymore. I won't CTB, but I'm too tired to get on SaSu frequently at this point, so sorry if I go offline for longer periods and sorry for not updating the diary. Gl yall, wish you all the best.

 

[NeoN0va]

Shit is getting worse and worse. Everything is starting to overwhelm me and I don't know will I be able to handle all of it at this point. Social life, school, trainings, private stuff, there's just too much.