mob
Student
- Jul 19, 2023
- 143
I feel like I'm going crazy. I'm at work right now, crying in the rest room, almost threw up. I'm going to lose my job 100% end of April. It's over. And it's all because of me. I won't be able to afford living, so worst case scenario is me moving back to my mom's place. I hate it. I hate it so much I'd rather die. I can't stand the abuse there.
My boss basically yelled at me about my absences and said that me saying I'm mentally ill isn't enough anymore and that I straight up don't care. I do care. I tried so hard to be a normal, functioning adult. I hate this place. I hate this job. I hate everything. I don't function as a person. I'm useless and stupid, and I don't want to do this anymore. I wanted to give life one more chance and messed it up, again and again. I'm fucking stupid to believe thatit would be better if I take my meds and try therapy. It won't. Even my boss said so. I'm going to fucking kill myself. I hate this life, and the only reason it's so messed up is because I keep messing it up.
My boss basically yelled at me about my absences and said that me saying I'm mentally ill isn't enough anymore and that I straight up don't care. I do care. I tried so hard to be a normal, functioning adult. I hate this place. I hate this job. I hate everything. I don't function as a person. I'm useless and stupid, and I don't want to do this anymore. I wanted to give life one more chance and messed it up, again and again. I'm fucking stupid to believe thatit would be better if I take my meds and try therapy. It won't. Even my boss said so. I'm going to fucking kill myself. I hate this life, and the only reason it's so messed up is because I keep messing it up.
