Venting Getting things off my chest - feel free to ignore

[Faen]

first of all

FUCKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKK

ive been looking at the chat and other posts on the forum, and I dont know what to say, but I want to join the conversation but I dont know how.

my indecisiveness is kicking my ass, I cant make choses anymore. im a slave to doing nothing. In one second, I have something to say and then the next I decide not to. I have changed my mind of adopting a cat and purchasing a ps4 a 100 times the last couple of weeks. like wtf

its driving me up the wall, and im getting crazy anxiety attacks of it. I honestly got a panic attack while I was cooking instant noodles because I felt like I was running out of time to add spices etc. Its fucking noodles and spices, its not difficult at all. im so fucking stupid. like im getting anxiety out of just writing this, because things are so unclear.

i can barely consentrate, I've tried reading and researching stuff about suicide methods, but it's so hard for me to read and make decisions.



fuckfuckfuck, feels like im going crazy because of my anxiety

ffffff

 

[Lunar]

I don't think you're stupid although I know so many of us feel that way about ourselves. I just wanted to say that I hear you (as in being able to relate to a degree).

 

[polyswarm]

I've had probably a dozen reddit accounts by now, I always end up deleting all my comments, and that is if I even posted them in the first place. Usually I'd type up something and end up not posting it. (tempted to not post this either right now)

And there's a lot of other things that I'm indecisive on.

With Red Dead Redemption 2 coming out soon, you'll have a great reason to buy a PS4, in my opinion.

 

[ctoan]

you need drugs bro

 

[Faen]

you need drugs bro

haha yeah, i would kill for some weed tbh.

 

[Miss clefable]

I've had probably a dozen reddit accounts by now, I always end up deleting all my comments, and that is if I even posted them in the first place. Usually I'd type up something and end up not posting it. (tempted to not post this either right now)

And there's a lot of other things that I'm indecisive on.

With Red Dead Redemption 2 coming out soon, you'll have a great reason to buy a PS4, in my opinion.

I'm buying RDR2 as well I've been playing Spider-Man

 

[Faen]

I'm buying RDR2 as well I've been playing Spider-Man

Just ordered a ps4 with the spiderman game. looking forward to both of those games now, yey

 

[ctoan]

haha yeah, i would kill for some weed tbh.

rather sth that influence dopamin

 

[Miss clefable]

Just ordered a ps4 with the spiderman game. looking forward to both of those games now, yey

I'm looking forward to death stranding but I don't know if I'll be alive long enough to play it

 

[Faen]

rather sth that influence dopamin

im not sure what ro reply, do you have any suggestions or something?