First loss
Specialist
- Jan 28, 2019
- 393
Today was supposed to be the day of my death, but things happened. I started considering all of my family and how my death would affect them. My little brother for example. The burden seems to heavy for me. Also, some pro lifers both online and my friend in RL have gave it their best to convince me to stay.
I legit don't know anymore, and that's why i'm making this thread.
I feel like if I take their advice and stay, i'll just get scammed into more miserable existing and pointless wandering around this world.
On the other hand, I feel sorry for my old grandfather and my little brother and how they could react. Last night my grandfather and I had a nice, detailed conversation about lots of stuff and I couldn't help but think that he would be absolutely devastated if I died, and that he doesn't need something like that few years after losing his wife.
What do I do, lads? Any contribution is valued.
I legit don't know anymore, and that's why i'm making this thread.
I feel like if I take their advice and stay, i'll just get scammed into more miserable existing and pointless wandering around this world.
On the other hand, I feel sorry for my old grandfather and my little brother and how they could react. Last night my grandfather and I had a nice, detailed conversation about lots of stuff and I couldn't help but think that he would be absolutely devastated if I died, and that he doesn't need something like that few years after losing his wife.
What do I do, lads? Any contribution is valued.