Story Gonna attempt at least a month off drinking to see if life could be worth living

[BluesRunTheGame]

Because in the haze of addiction, nothng is clear. My only fear is I'll have a bad time with my depression and OCD, which has happened before in sober periods. But I have a currently stable household and am about to start on a programme to help me get a job, so it's not a bad time to get dry. I also can't really afford it anyway.

 

[BeautifulMosaics]

Well done OP. That is great Good for you.

 

[lofticries]

Keep up with the attempts. One day the attempts will become lifestyle changes.

 

[devin44]

You can do it, OP. Leave this website behind!

 

[FuneralCry]

I wish you the best. I hope things work out for you.

 

[Grav]

That's good news! Take it a day at a time.

 

[timf]

You might want to try some different AA meetings just to see if you discover a group that could be a good fit.

 

[BluesRunTheGame]

You might want to try some different AA meetings just to see if you discover a group that could be a good fit.

Yeah I've been before when I had 14 months sober so will definitely get to some.

Anyway, end of Day 1. Thanks all!

 

[BluesRunTheGame]

Finishing up Day 3 of sobriety, so far so good. Some cravings earlier but distracted myself by going to a coffee shop and writing; the cravings soon subsided.

 

[AtMostOkay]

Finishing up Day 3 of sobriety, so far so good. Some cravings earlier but distracted myself by going to a coffee shop and writing; the cravings soon subsided.

Well done, friend. One day at a time, and all that jazz. You have support and mad respect here.

 

[wait.what]

Congratulations! Those first days are absolutely brutal, so celebrate your victories whatever way you can.

Finishing up Day 3 of sobriety, so far so good. Some cravings earlier but distracted myself by going to a coffee shop and writing; the cravings soon subsided.

You didn't even eat an entire box of donuts! Go you! The rehab I went to had a literal candy store attached. It's amazing any of us made it out of there without becoming diabetic.

It's early days yet, but if you get through a month and life isn't better, or maybe it's even worse, don't quit quitting. Post-acute withdrawal is a real thing and it sucks ass. Your brain will tell you all kinds of lies to get you to pick up a drink and bathe it in that sweet, sweet dopamine again. It may have gotten out of the habit of making its own. If that's the case, it helps to have people to watch your back. A lot of people use AA for that, but people have made it without AA, so don't imagine that it's them or dying of cirrhosis.

 

[BluesRunTheGame]

A week sober. I've had a couple of low days with some cravings but most days have been fine. Feels good to know I haven't been fucking my life up this week. I'm gonna need a part-time job though because there's not much of life to even see if it's worth living when you're unemployed.

 

[BluesRunTheGame]

Two weeks sober. It's been a pretty smooth week, with minimal OCD/depression/anxiety (my 'big three' issues). I had a job interview yesterday and will find out later today if I got it. I hope so because I fear the boredom (partly due to lack of funds) will start creeping in, which could then trigger the depression, etc. Of course the flip side of getting a new job is it can cause stress (trigger for drinking) and anxiety. But you gotta do what you gotta do!

 

[BluesRunTheGame]

Three weeks sober. So this week I've had a touch of OCD and my old tinnitus has played up a bit but I'm used to both so I try to recognise that for me the worst of it tends to die down again after spiking for a few days. The tinnitus is on me again today though, and it can easily spiral into anxiety if I let it... So many goddamn issues, I tell ya.

But at least I now know for sure I am no longer severely depressed, so I can't really use that as an excuse to drink right now. Not that I particularly want to; it's just strange being so sober is all. It can be up and down but yesterday was a particularly good day feeling fine and sober so I should cling to knowing that such days do happen.

I didn't get that job but there's a chance of another one anyway. But without drinking I hardly spend any money so I've mostly been okay with taking it easy. But I do miss socialising - though more at a potental job than with potential drinking buddies, I feel.

So could life be worth living? For now, yes, but I can't ignore the fact that alongside my many issues, I do live in a clown world. If I can find a place where I can take part only minimally, then perhaps there might be a case for it longer term.

 

[lyles]

I'm so excited and proud of you! Congrats on all of this, you got a lot of support here. Sending you my best vibes and hope!