SocialSoil
for the first and last time i guess
- Aug 15, 2024
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I just got my SN yesterday, I made a will yesterday, today I lied to my teacher that I am ill and took a sick leave until Monday.
I've discussed all important things with my friends already. I'm gonna spend these last days just being silly and enjoying myself.
So, my plan.
Satuday
Sunday
Start fasting, in case of stomachache take nurofen
put trash can next to head of the bed
open window
before taking SN - mouthwash to numb the mouth
prepare gum to cover the taste
talk with friend on the phone, turn lo-fi stream on laptop
+ I also have atarax (hydroxyzine) but not sure when is time to take it, so if you have any tips about that I'll be really grateful. also, I have mirtazapine and quetiapine, I pass out in 30 mins after taking them, so maybe it will add to just losing consiousness faster?
I really hope it goes smoothly. Please with me luck. I first understood I have to ctb when I had been just 11 years old, seriously. This is finally going to happen. This miserable life ends on sunday. I can't take it anymore I've done everything and this is not enough to be someone who deserves respect. I just don't care about anything except my friends anymore. Please with me luck...
I've discussed all important things with my friends already. I'm gonna spend these last days just being silly and enjoying myself.
So, my plan.
Satuday
- 8:00 - metoclopramide 10 mg
- 16:00 - metoclopramide 10 mg
- 24:00 - metoclopramide 10 mg
Sunday
Start fasting, in case of stomachache take nurofen
- 8:00 - metoclopramide 10 mg
- 16:00 - metoclopramide 10 mg
- 23:00 - paracetamol 10 g
- 23:15 - metoclopramide 30 mg
put trash can next to head of the bed
open window
- 23:30 - gastal (antacid) 2 pills
before taking SN - mouthwash to numb the mouth
prepare gum to cover the taste
talk with friend on the phone, turn lo-fi stream on laptop
- 24:00 - take SN, lay down
+ I also have atarax (hydroxyzine) but not sure when is time to take it, so if you have any tips about that I'll be really grateful. also, I have mirtazapine and quetiapine, I pass out in 30 mins after taking them, so maybe it will add to just losing consiousness faster?
I really hope it goes smoothly. Please with me luck. I first understood I have to ctb when I had been just 11 years old, seriously. This is finally going to happen. This miserable life ends on sunday. I can't take it anymore I've done everything and this is not enough to be someone who deserves respect. I just don't care about anything except my friends anymore. Please with me luck...
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