Discussion Good and bad things that happened to you in 2024. What was the best? What was the worst?

[Praestat_Mori]

2024 is almost over. How was your year?

At the end of last year, I had doubts about whether I can make it through 2024 or not. The whole year has been relatively uneventful and everything is on a low level, somehow stable for now but very fragile. In a review, I would say the whole year was pretty much neutral with some ups and downs on a low level. I'm much less suicidal than last year yet, I still think, it'd be better if I were dead. I don't have any active plans to kms in 2025 - hopefully, my situation gets better and not worse.

 

[pointblank]

One thing I'm glad for is showing up for myself and deciding to drink 2 1/2 glasses of bleach. I ended up puking it out but I still feel proud that I managed to do an attempt.

Nembutal where are you. . .

 

[Forever Sleep]

The best was- I managed to sustain myself financially doing my prefered job. The worst was a failure on a project. They're being super nice about it but, I still feel dreadful.

The stupid thing though, is that there aren't really any stand out good moments. More a gratitude that things weren't/ aren't any worse. Most days, I'm at least grateful to not be still doing a former job I hated. That's really not enough though- to my mind to warrant slogging through this shit! It's more that it's the lesser of the evils.

I suspect I would be more grateful for this if I was forced back into one of those former jobs (which is always a looming threat.) But, I kind of hate that about life too. That the main way you actually appreciate what (sometimes fairly little) you do have is to experience much harsher situations. Sorry. This turned into a vent! I get the impression you were hoping for more positive responses...

 

[Praestat_Mori]

I get the impression you were hoping for more positive responses...

Venting is fine!

Everyone who wants to share can share how they experienced this year and nobody should have to wear a mask.

 

[NoPoint2Life]

The best was that I made a lot of progress with my OCD as far as actually cleaning things constantly. Can't say the same for washing my hands.
As for worst, it's been a shitty week so my mind goes right to my mom being diagnosed with cancer the other day.

 

[avoid]

The good: I have found joy in reading books now. I still love to watch movies but it's rare to find a gem these days that I have not yet watched. Whereas, for books, I avoided them like the plague until mid-2024 so there are heaps of great books to find.

The bad: I ghosted the last few friends I had left due to my low self-esteem and anxiety I experienced during social gathering. I'm aware ghosting is a selfish act and I feel like I'm self-destructing.

 

[SVEN]

Best would be in January when I thought, "Well, this could be my last year in this life."
Worst thus far would be thinking in December, "Well, this wasn't my last year."

 

[ijustwishtodie]

Best - N/A
Worst - being alive every single day of this year

 

[FuneralCry]

Existence will always feel so bad to me no matter what, it's just terrible unnecessary pointless suffering all for the sake of it and I'd never wish for the burden of human existence, I just find it so terrible how this existence was imposed and I had to suffer so much as a result.

I wish I was never forced into this existence more than anything and I find it so cruel how I cannot just have the option to just cease existing in peace even know I never would have wished for any of this. I have no interest in suffering in this existence and existence will always feel like the most terrible, tragic mistake to me, personally I'd always prefer to die, non-existence is all I personally see as desirable, human existence just feels like an abomination for me and I always have so much dread for what lies ahead, it really feels like I've suffered for so long in this existence.

 

[maka]

Worst: I had to leave a job that I loved because of a racist boss and being discriminated against for having autism. I was unemployed for a long period of time which made me extremely suicidal. I also keep facing rejection when trying to find a gf/friends and quit therapy because I am tired of stupid so called mental health professionals telling me to "jUsT mAkE fRiEnDs" as if it's that simple.

Best: I got a job now which means I can afford to eat and take care of my cats again.

 

[CogitoMori]

Nothing good. Got lead on, thought I had a new best friend but they were a liar, therapist dumped me after I opened up about my abuse and SI, lost friends due to their immaturity and inability to accept photographic evidence against people they like, partner physically abused me again, license got suspended, only person that ever actually cared about me won't talk to me and I don't know why

 

[TransilvanianHunger]

Switching to a new uni in January was good. There have been times throughout the year where certain things about it really bothered me, but it was the right move to make. It's helped me flesh out my career-related ideas for the future, and I've met a couple of good, smart, interesting people with whom I've become fairly close.

Can't think of anything specific for the "worst" category, though. Of course, a load of stuff happened, as it always does, but none of it stands out as particularly negative. Just the usual bumps and scrapes of everyday life, I suppose.

 

[Thisisnotaname]

Best was my Disney+ account

 

[HereWeGo!]

Best - met a wonderful girlfriend.
Worst - getting suicidal thoughts