goodbye! (my final post)

[mango000]

ive decided that ive waited long enough, and im finally ready to go. tomorrow at noon will be when i finally ctb. i wont go into much detail about my method here, but i made a post earlier this week about it that you can find if youre curious. seeing all the things that would lie ahead for me in the future if i were to stay alive, i know with complete certainty that this is the path i want to take. im finally ready to be free.

i have a lot of wonderful memories that im so grateful for, im sure that my head will be completely filled with them when it comes time for me to ctb. i think that im gonna feel really happy and at peace when i go ^-^

im feeling very optimistic about my attempt, i dont see it going wrong and im very confident everything will work out for me. id really like to thank everyone on this site, you are all incredibly kind people, anyone who has supported during the time ive spent here i want you to know i appreciate it more than you could ever know.

ill leave you with one of my favorite songs, im planning on listening to it while i ctb. i think its kind of fitting ^-^



im gonna go to the store now and buy my fav ice cream for my last meal heheh ^-^

i hope you all find the peace youre looking for. you deserve it, even if you think you dont

 

[ma0]

I hope you can find the peace and happiness you're looknig for.

 

[Tonic_Secrecy]

That's a beautiful song to listen to on your way out I'll add it to my playlist I wish you eternal peace Godspeed.

 

[Jadeith]

i hope for painless journey for you.

 

[APeacefulPlace]

Hope you find everything you're looking for mango.

 

[human909]

I wish you good luck and hope you find the peace you've been looking for.

 

[MidnightCat]

I'm sorry to hear that, I hope you find peace whatever path you end up taking.

Beautiful song btw.

 

[before20]

Will definitely be adding that song to my playlist. Thank you for sharing.

I hope you enjoy your meal and your last day.

 

[parasite_eve]

Wishing you peace come what may <3

The thoughtfulness and serenity of your words are inspiring to me as I reflect on what lies ahead

 

[OptingOutSmiling]

Goodbye mango, thank you for having been a kind member of this community and leaving us with the song as reminder. May you also find the well-deserved peace you wish for us. Enjoy your final moments and last ice cream, sending you love.

 

[JesiBel]

I hope everything goes as you planned, and you can achieve peace and tranquility. A big hug for you.

 

[ForgottenDreams]

I hope you find peace. Good luck

 

[opheliaoveragain]

wishing you peace and relief. we're here with you.

 

[soonnotkoei]

wishing you a peaceful journey. also great choice on the song, i can tell thought was put behind it. peace and love.

 

[FuneralCry]

I hope you find peace from suffering, I wish you the best.

 

[longtime_lurker_123]

May your plans unfold smoothly and bring you peace.

 

[melonpan]

I absolutely love siinamota and his songs, especially Shoujo A
I hope the world after treats you better than this one and you can finally say you found peace

 

[Surai]

please, please fly and find peace of all peaces

 

[depressed-pos]

may you finally find peace and eternal rest <3

 

[not-2-b-the-answer]

May you find peace and eternal rest from this horrible world.

 

[mango000]

I absolutely love siinamota and his songs, especially Shoujo A
I hope the world after treats you better than this one and you can finally say you found peace

shoujo a is my other favorite :D

 

[BlueButterfly111]

Wishing you peace and safe travels

 

[Kibby]

Rest well, friend.

 

[newstart2000]

Wish you a peaceful journey and goodbye

 

[danny10]

I hope you find peace in your decision.

 

[archaea]

May you find the peace this world didn't give you. Rest well.

 

[mango000]

its currently 11:30, i decided to push my ctb time back one hour, so my time will be at 1:00 instead of 12:00.

i drank my final glass of water 30 minutes ago, ill not be drinking anything else until i take my sn. with an exception of a very small amount of warer to help me take painkillers 1 hour before sn.

ive finished tidying up all of my loose ends, i just factory reset my phone and my computer. im not bothering will deleting all my online accounts ive made over the years, it would take foreverrr and its just not worth the hassle.

im honestly feeling very nervous... but i know that this is what i want. i think its normal to feel how im feeling, its built into our brains that we need to keep surviving by any means possible, so knowing that im going to try to purposely end my life very soon is making my brain feel very nervous lol >_<

 

[rozeske]

I wish you a peaceful transition.

 

[parasite_eve]

Here for you, you deserve peace - whatever you choose <3

 

[mango000]

its 12:12, i just took 600mg of ibuprofen. 48 minutes to go

im watching cute gl romance anime clips on twitter to calm myself down lol. yuri makes everything better ^-^

edit: its now 12:50. i just finished preparing my three glasses of SN. im gonna go lie down and put on some music id like to listen to while i CTB.