LonelyDude15
Currently Spiraling
- Sep 26, 2020
- 277
Hi,
some of you may have seen me around here. I was more active near the end of 2020 but haven't posted much recently. When I first came on this website there were a lot of things bothering me. My academic life was in tatters, a lot of my friends had left me and I wasn't talking to my family. And while I still have a lot of problems that I'm dealing with I'm happy to say that I'm not as sad now as I was back then. The idea to leave a goodbye recovery post occurred to me after I remembered seeing one close to when I joined this forum. I thought this would be a nice way to update anyone keeping up with my profile on what happened to me. I'm planning on going back to school again in the fall and on trying to do life again, it's still going to be very hard but hopefully, I won't end up back here. Part of the reason for my long absence was because I had realized that this website wasn't the best for my psyche. I spent my days constantly thinking about suicide and I thought that in order to make a rational decision it would be good for me to take a break from here. I also learned that not everyone on here is a good actor, I've come across bullies, agitators, mean and cruel people in this forum and in the chat as well, so I had to take a break from that negativity. Despite that, I have made some amazing friends on this forum and I wish them and everyone else the best regardless of what that might mean. There are too many people to mention so I won't name anyone, but you know who you are, individuals who have been empathetic, caring and helped make my darkest days a bit better. I hope you try to exhaust all possible options before committing CTB, but you probably don't need me to tell you this. I hope I don't sound too melodramatic but your actions have really meant a lot to me.
Thank You
some of you may have seen me around here. I was more active near the end of 2020 but haven't posted much recently. When I first came on this website there were a lot of things bothering me. My academic life was in tatters, a lot of my friends had left me and I wasn't talking to my family. And while I still have a lot of problems that I'm dealing with I'm happy to say that I'm not as sad now as I was back then. The idea to leave a goodbye recovery post occurred to me after I remembered seeing one close to when I joined this forum. I thought this would be a nice way to update anyone keeping up with my profile on what happened to me. I'm planning on going back to school again in the fall and on trying to do life again, it's still going to be very hard but hopefully, I won't end up back here. Part of the reason for my long absence was because I had realized that this website wasn't the best for my psyche. I spent my days constantly thinking about suicide and I thought that in order to make a rational decision it would be good for me to take a break from here. I also learned that not everyone on here is a good actor, I've come across bullies, agitators, mean and cruel people in this forum and in the chat as well, so I had to take a break from that negativity. Despite that, I have made some amazing friends on this forum and I wish them and everyone else the best regardless of what that might mean. There are too many people to mention so I won't name anyone, but you know who you are, individuals who have been empathetic, caring and helped make my darkest days a bit better. I hope you try to exhaust all possible options before committing CTB, but you probably don't need me to tell you this. I hope I don't sound too melodramatic but your actions have really meant a lot to me.
Thank You
