Plato'sCaveDweller
Sleep is good, death is better.
- Sep 2, 2024
- 513
Well, the time has come for me to finally catch my bus. Tomorrow, I'll be taking my SN.
Here's my protocol:
Fast for 12 or so hours (last meal finished at least 13 hours before I drink SN, to allow for some digestion)
2 hours before, Cease consumption of water (drinking minimal water to swallow meds though)
1 hour before, take 975mg (325mg X3) of Acetaminophen
45 minutes before, take 30mg (10mg X3) of Metoclopramide
15-20 minutes before, measure out SN then mix 3 glasses with 50ml of water and 25g of SN each
wait remaining time, drink SN, lie down in my bed, and off I go
I'll have gum to chew after the SN
I had promised a while back that I would test my SN, since we had a few scares in September about the purity of DMC's product. But it was brought to people's attention that nitrite test strips are not perfectly accurate for testing purity, and the results can vary between strips, brands, or user errors. So I will not be testing my SN, as there's a very good chance that it's fine, especially considering that there has been a few CTBs recently that used DMC's stuff: potatocube on the 13th (presumed), Maynoname at the beginning of the month, shadow999 at the end of September, and Beyond_Repair in late August. I think there's been others, but I can't recall exactly. If I succeed, then you can add me to this growing list.
As for the actual act of CTB, this has been a very long time coming. My desire to no longer exist began around the age of 9. And I've spent the last 2 years actively trying to exit via hanging (partial and full), but I was never able to manage it. In late August, I fortuitously found DMC and I bought my SN as soon as I had the funds available. I was also able to get Meto, which was something I thought I'd have to go without. It's still a bit surreal, to be honest. But it feels incredibly relieving to have a method that is much more suitable for my sensibilities. I'm really hoping this will finally be my bus ticket out of here. Fuck knows I've fought long and hard enough for peace.
I'm not going to write any more about myself, as it's not really necessary nor do I want to write too much here. I do, however, want to thank each and every one of you for being some cool ass motherfuckers. This community we have here is truly special, and I hope it continues to be long after I'm gone. I really enjoyed getting to speak with some of you in private, and even make a couple friends (something I never thought I'd do here)! I hope I was able to offer helpful info and assistance during my time here. I also want to thank the admins and moderators for curating such an incredible forum, as there's absolutely nothing like it anywhere else on the internet or the real world. This forum provides an incredibly valuable service to not only those who wish to CTB, but also those who need a community and a safe-space to speak their mind. I hope it will continue to be available to people in need for a long time.
Anyway, I'll be here in the thread until I go to sleep. And I'll come back in morning to say farewell before I drink my SN. I will not be providing live updates during the process since I do not want to be found with SaSu open on my phone.
Here's my protocol:
Fast for 12 or so hours (last meal finished at least 13 hours before I drink SN, to allow for some digestion)
2 hours before, Cease consumption of water (drinking minimal water to swallow meds though)
1 hour before, take 975mg (325mg X3) of Acetaminophen
45 minutes before, take 30mg (10mg X3) of Metoclopramide
15-20 minutes before, measure out SN then mix 3 glasses with 50ml of water and 25g of SN each
wait remaining time, drink SN, lie down in my bed, and off I go
I'll have gum to chew after the SN
I had promised a while back that I would test my SN, since we had a few scares in September about the purity of DMC's product. But it was brought to people's attention that nitrite test strips are not perfectly accurate for testing purity, and the results can vary between strips, brands, or user errors. So I will not be testing my SN, as there's a very good chance that it's fine, especially considering that there has been a few CTBs recently that used DMC's stuff: potatocube on the 13th (presumed), Maynoname at the beginning of the month, shadow999 at the end of September, and Beyond_Repair in late August. I think there's been others, but I can't recall exactly. If I succeed, then you can add me to this growing list.
As for the actual act of CTB, this has been a very long time coming. My desire to no longer exist began around the age of 9. And I've spent the last 2 years actively trying to exit via hanging (partial and full), but I was never able to manage it. In late August, I fortuitously found DMC and I bought my SN as soon as I had the funds available. I was also able to get Meto, which was something I thought I'd have to go without. It's still a bit surreal, to be honest. But it feels incredibly relieving to have a method that is much more suitable for my sensibilities. I'm really hoping this will finally be my bus ticket out of here. Fuck knows I've fought long and hard enough for peace.
I'm not going to write any more about myself, as it's not really necessary nor do I want to write too much here. I do, however, want to thank each and every one of you for being some cool ass motherfuckers. This community we have here is truly special, and I hope it continues to be long after I'm gone. I really enjoyed getting to speak with some of you in private, and even make a couple friends (something I never thought I'd do here)! I hope I was able to offer helpful info and assistance during my time here. I also want to thank the admins and moderators for curating such an incredible forum, as there's absolutely nothing like it anywhere else on the internet or the real world. This forum provides an incredibly valuable service to not only those who wish to CTB, but also those who need a community and a safe-space to speak their mind. I hope it will continue to be available to people in need for a long time.
Anyway, I'll be here in the thread until I go to sleep. And I'll come back in morning to say farewell before I drink my SN. I will not be providing live updates during the process since I do not want to be found with SaSu open on my phone.
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i'm sure you're gone by now and i wish you endless peace . you did such a great job comforting and informing others on this site and you'll be missed 
