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John-Doe

John-Doe

Cry like a child, though these years make me older
Jan 20, 2024
38
i don't really know why im writing this because i haven't been active on here for a long time so none of you know me, i just private message one person here. i still want to say goodbye somewhere though, to someone, and this seems the best place to do it. im about to hang myself full suspension. i tested it and it's not that bad. i put a towel on my throat for padding and if i let myself down but hang a bit on the pull up bar i start passing out, then when i do ill let go completely. it really isn't painful. ill post a picture of my set up for you guys to see. good luck to you all, whatever direction your life (or death) takes, i hope your pain ends. it's sad that my pain wasn't even all that unusual or extreme compared to what so many go through. 17558440541555486618829625443110 goodbye everyone
 
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Freedomm

Freedomm

Student
Aug 2, 2025
144
I hope you find a way out of your suffering. I wish you luck.
 
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bankai

bankai

Visionary
Mar 16, 2025
2,288
I'm a bit similar. My pain isn't that terrible either compared to some of the other people here.
But every day is just miserable for me. I don't find any more joy.

I'm so sorry that it's come to this. I hope you find peace.
 
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scho

scho

New Member
Jan 21, 2025
1
Goodnight John Doe. i hope you sleep easily and well :)
 
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John-Doe

John-Doe

Cry like a child, though these years make me older
Jan 20, 2024
38
I'm a bit similar. My pain isn't that terrible either compared to some of the other people here.
But every day is just miserable for me. I don't find any more joy.

I'm so sorry that it's come to this. I hope you find peace.
same here. my life sucks a bit now because i gave up on it years ago, but to be honest nothing was really wrong with my circumstances when i originally decided to ctb. i just felt like my dog had died or something all the time without anything in particular being wrong.
 
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darksouls

darksouls

Enlightened
May 10, 2025
1,195
good luck, I hope you find relief from suffering 🫂:heart:
 
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livefastdieyoung

livefastdieyoung

Member
Aug 5, 2025
50
May you finally find peace, whatever you decide to do. Sending hugs. ❤️
 
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syntheticSun

syntheticSun

New Member
Mar 15, 2023
2
i hope you get the comfort you deserve, goodnight friend ❤️
 
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PI3.14

PI3.14

what is chaos to the fly is normal to the spider
Oct 4, 2024
234
Sorry life has brought you to this. Whether you choose to go with it or not, I hope you find peace.
 
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EmptyBottle

EmptyBottle

🔑 LTO tape exists
Apr 10, 2025
855
Even if you've not talked to me, I still don't mind hearing from u... I admit I want to have an idea how often members leave due to CTB, vs forget to login or similar, and my guess is that a moderate fraction (eg 5% or less) CTB. Example, out of 100K accounts (assuming no duplicates), 5K CTB. Since the site has been up for maybe 8 years, that works out to maybe 2 CTB's a day documented here (and I guess some undocumented CTB).
 
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Ch4in3dcr0w

Ch4in3dcr0w

if u ever see me happy just kill me
Jun 21, 2025
333
I hope it will be as comfortable and painless as possible. whatever happends i hope u will find the peace u are looking for. Much love 🫂
 
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renaxx

renaxx

ㅠㅅㅠ
Jul 30, 2025
22
I hope you can find some relief from what you're going through. I wish you luck
 
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John-Doe

John-Doe

Cry like a child, though these years make me older
Jan 20, 2024
38
my friend just happened to send me a super nice message right before i was going to, i was excited before and even laughing but i feel so bad now. they said they had a bad day and i told them im always here if they want to talk...i feel like such an asshole having that as a last message :(
 
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EmptyBottle

EmptyBottle

🔑 LTO tape exists
Apr 10, 2025
855
my friend just happened to send me a super nice message right before i was going to, i was excited before and even laughing but i feel so bad now. they said they had a bad day and i told them im always here if they want to talk...i feel like such an asshole having that as a last message :(
a message I might've sent was "if I may ask, what happened", and have had a conversation before ending in "cya" or smth...

Side note, just because this thread is posted doesn't mean you are obligated to perform any stated actions or not, me and others will respect your decision either way. If you'd like to edit the message you sent to the friend... you can do that too.
 
nobodycaresaboutme

nobodycaresaboutme

maybe my English kinda sucks
Jun 30, 2025
173
If you feel like now is not the time, you can just postpone it. Withdrawal is not a shame.
If you are still determined, I hope you have a safe trip. Much love :heart:
 
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EternalShore

EternalShore

Hardworking Lass who Dreams of Love~ 💕✨
Jun 9, 2023
1,582
I wish you the best, John-Doe~ Your friend sounds very sweet to you~ :) not often does one get so readily complimented~ See ya, and I'll be praying for you~ :)
 
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Alexandra_

Alexandra_

Don't Fear the Reaper
Sep 30, 2023
595
Farewell, good luck to you on your last journey. Thank you for your wishes. I hope my death is not far off
Гифка с сердцем от Kooperativa
 
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Terrible_Life_99

Student
Jul 3, 2025
115
It seems like she died. I wish her peace. It'll always be so surreal to me at one moment the person is here and then gone forever. Hopefully all her wishes will come true in heaven.
 
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FuneralCry

FuneralCry

Just wanting some peace
Sep 24, 2020
44,507
I hope you find the relief you search for, I wish you the best.
 
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