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catstermaster

catstermaster

Going away soon nya :3
Aug 25, 2025
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First off, thank you to all the folks on this forum who provided such helpful information.
I have my SN. I have fasted for 24+ hours. I have taken my painkillers, and following Stan's guide, I will be taking SN in an hour. I will not be taking benzos.
I will try to document my conscious experience in the comments, minute by minute after I drink SN.
Peace.
Update: It's surprising how calm I am. I expected to be a lot more panicked, but I'm just normally listening to music and popping the meds in the given intervals. Anyway, been 30 mins, have taken antiemetics 15 mins earlier and antacids just now
 
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Avisagia

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Aug 27, 2023
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Hope it will go smoothly, GL
 
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Bimbosqualo

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Mar 19, 2025
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I hope you find the relief you search for, I wish you the best.
 
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Leyna

Leyna

I only paint in red now
Sep 28, 2024
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I hope you find peace.

Have you taken the SN yet?
 
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Painismyname

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Aug 20, 2025
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Hope you find peace ❤️
 
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catstermaster

catstermaster

Going away soon nya :3
Aug 25, 2025
22
Thanks everyone for the kind words. 7 minutes remaining then I'm drinking it. Have 2 glasses ready.
 
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catstermaster

catstermaster

Going away soon nya :3
Aug 25, 2025
22
How are you @catstermaster?
Just drank it. Still calmer than expected, haha. Will keep updating till I can. Taste was REALLY salty, but bearable. I actually kinda chuckled at it before drinking like 'So this little shot is gonna kill me, huh?'
1 minute passed, still no symptoms. Started listening to my playlist while I wait.
2 mins, increased heart rate and feel some tightening of my muscles. Hands are slightly trembly but not too much. Feeling the urge to throw up already.
 
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Bimbosqualo

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Mar 19, 2025
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Just drank it. Still calmer than expected, haha. Will keep updating till I can. Taste was REALLY salty, but bearable. I actually kinda chuckled at it before drinking like 'So this little shot is gonna kill me, huh?'
1 minute passed, still no symptoms. Started listening to my playlist while I wait.
2 mins, increased heart rate and feel some tightening of my muscles. Hands are slightly trembly but not too much. Feeling the urge to throw up already.
Come on really 😅, now lie down and relax because there's no telling when you'll pass out.
 
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Fading_light74

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Aug 15, 2025
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Hope everything goes as planned
 
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Forveleth

I knew I forgot to do something when I was 15...
Mar 26, 2024
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Safe travels friend. I hope you find peace.
 
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Niron1492

Niron1492

pew pew ;>
Aug 28, 2025
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I wish you much love and hope you find blissful peace. :heart:
 
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catstermaster

catstermaster

Going away soon nya :3
Aug 25, 2025
22
I threw up but body going numb. Not taking another glass
 
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Bimbosqualo

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Mar 19, 2025
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Just drank it. Still calmer than expected, haha. Will keep updating till I can. Taste was REALLY salty, but bearable. I actually kinda chuckled at it before drinking like 'So this little shot is gonna kill me, huh?'
1 minute passed, still no symptoms. Started listening to my playlist while I wait.
2 mins, increased heart rate and feel some tightening of my muscles. Hands are slightly trembly but not too much. Feeling the urge to throw up already.
Were you able to control the nausea?
How are you feeling now?
How are you feeling now?
How are you feeling now?
 
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failedmind

failedmind

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Oct 31, 2024
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i hope you find peace 🫂
 
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tiltedcompass

tiltedcompass

I just want to sleep forever man...
Jul 25, 2025
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Hope you find peace and relief.
 
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nuva

nuva

"I'm blue da ba dee dabba da-ee"
Jul 7, 2025
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i hope you find peace. good luck
 
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Tord

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Jun 11, 2025
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Catster hasn't updated since throwing up 15 minutes ago and their body going numb, may all go well and painless for them. I hope they passed out so they won't feel much more than that.
 
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Bimbosqualo

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Mar 19, 2025
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Catster hasn't updated since throwing up 15 minutes ago and their body going numb, may all go well and painless for them. I hope they passed out so they won't feel much more than that.
Yes, I think so too. He'll be resting now.❤️
 
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unluckysadness

unluckysadness

Arcanist
Jul 9, 2025
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RIP 😔🙏🕊️ I hope you'll find peace
 
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nool

nool

He who has not tasted grapes says sour
Aug 17, 2025
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I hope you found your peace🫂
 
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Alexandra_

Alexandra_

Don't Fear the Reaper
Sep 30, 2023
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I also hope you have found peace 🖤
 
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eattwinkiesseejesus

eattwinkiesseejesus

Praying for death to a God that doesn't answer
Jan 18, 2025
123
I hope you have found peace, God speed 🙏
 
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