goodbye

[billie]

hey sasu

today is my one-year sasu anniversary and i'm killing myself with sn today
i made the decision to kill myself on my sasu anniversary with sn weeks ago when i received my sn in december last year
i have many reasons why i want to kill myself but the main one is my borderline personality disorder
i've been living with this mental illness for years but it's just getting worse every day
i can't and don't want to live like this anymore
my borderline personality disorder makes me a bad person
i'm a burden but i don't want to be a burden anymore and that's why it's better if i just kill myself
nobody loves me or cares about me
nobody will miss me or think about me
i'm an unlovable worthless piece of shit
everyone is better off without me
goodbye

billie

Spoiler: my ctb song

 

[Freebandzgang]

Im sorry your life has gotten to this point, i sympathize with you. I will miss you. I hope find peace.

 

[ma0]

I've seen and empathized a number of your posts, and you were an absolute joy to have on this forum. I hope you can find the peace you're searching for.

 

[Nobody'sHero]

I don't believe you when you say you are a bad person... I don't believe you are bad enough to not deserve love and acceptance. If having a mental illness means being bad, then I'm also guilty. I really hope you find the peace you deserve. I'm sorry about the pain you feel. If you are not 100% sure you don't have to do it, you've had sn since december, what's a little more waiting?

 

[Namelesa]

Whatever happens, I hope you can escape the pain of this world and your disorder.

Also know that you weren't a burden here. I know a lot of people cared about you in chat and were worried when you weren't around.

 

[pappapgold]

Find the peace you need in your journey.

 

[Goodfornothingbish]

hey sasu

today is my one-year sasu anniversary and i'm killing myself with sn today
i made the decision to kill myself on my sasu anniversary with sn weeks ago when i received my sn in december last year
i have many reasons why i want to kill myself but the main one is my borderline personality disorder
i've been living with this mental illness for years but it's just getting worse every day
i can't and don't want to live like this anymore
my borderline personality disorder makes me a bad person
i'm a burden but i don't want to be a burden anymore and that's why it's better if i just kill myself
nobody loves me or cares about me
nobody will miss me or think about me
i'm an unlovable worthless piece of shit
everyone is better off without me
goodbye

billie

Spoiler: my ctb song

I will miss you billie i hope you find peace in any way i hope to see you soon

 

[deadbidaylight]

I am so sorry that your pain has brought you to the end. I promise you all those things you listed are not true and it's just negative self talk. It's easy to fall into those self loathing feelings with depression, but I'm sure that people do love you, will miss you and mourn your death. It is ultimately your choice to follow through with your plans or not, and you are supported regardless out the outcome. If you do go, I hope you're free from your torment and can finally rest.

If you change your mind and decide to stay with us, we will welcome you back with open arms. There is no shame in changing your mind.

 

[Lo$t95]

Whatever decision you choose ~ make it for yourself, nobody else. Wishing you comfort regardless please try to be kind to yourself today.

 

[Nobody'sHero]

Found multiple comments asking for you, might not mean much, but seems like some anons will for sure miss you!

 

[Doemu]

I hope you find peace. I really do.

 

[waistcoat]

i'm so so so sorry that life brought you here, i wish i could make it all better for you, but i'm happy you will finally be free and at peace. you brighten every day that i see you and this place will always remember and mourn you. you've touched so many hearts and i just wish life was more fair to you. i hope everything is peaceful, that you don't suffer, and that today was the best day possible. you're amazing, you were the first person i truly connected with here and you hold such a special place in my heart. i love you. farewell darling.

 

[iamanavalanche]

you will be forever missed. wishing you the best

 

[DeadNotSleeping]

I'm so sorry billie. you will be missed. Good luck on your journey :(

 

[vercabow]

i'm going to miss you so much. every single time i make a cup of hot chocolate, i think of you and how much you loved that drink. you were one of the sweetest people on this site, and chat will never be the same without you.

i hope that everything goes well for you on the other side. you've suffered so much and it hurts a lot to think about, because you don't deserve any of it.

rest easy billie.

 

[rs929]

Just for the record, DBT and schema therapy are known for treating BPD really well.
Maybe you have already tried that, sorry if that's the case.
In any case, I wish you peace one way or another

 

[Higurashi415]

Goodbye billie, I hope you find what you're looking for on the other side.
You will be missed, despite what you think

 

[JesiBel]

May peace and serenity be with you. Sweet rest. Hugs to you.

 

[banger12]

It's very sad to see you go but I think most of us here understand it was too hard to keep going. I just wish you could give yourself the credit you deserve for being a kind person and see yourself how many on SaSu saw you. I'm sorry that life was so hurtful and I hope you find your peace. You were strong for facing your demons so long. Goodbye.

 

[Ashes of a Dreamer]

Liked the music, wish you peace of mind on whatever decision you take. A restful transition, if you choose to CTB, and a good recovery, if you choose to stay alive.

 

[OptingOutSmiling]

Dear Billie,
Thanks for having been here and sharing a bit of you with us in your time with Sasu. You may not think so, but you will be missed. Your posts have told us that you are a kind and caring soul, a good person who has been in pain and who deserves better. Thanks also for sharing your beautiful song, I hope that your journey will be in peace and I'm sending love to be with you on the way.
Wishing you all the best.
Goodbye dear friend.

 

[grapevoid]

Bye Billie I hope your journey is peaceful . Ps- I love your song so much

 

[opheliaoveragain]

nothing but love nothing but peace. fly high billie i'll miss seeing you around but you deserve peace.

 

[ForestGhost]

Rest well. That's a really beautiful song that I find myself coming back to time and time again over the years. I hope you're able to find your peace.

 

[needthebus]

hey sasu

today is my one-year sasu anniversary and i'm killing myself with sn today
i made the decision to kill myself on my sasu anniversary with sn weeks ago when i received my sn in december last year
i have many reasons why i want to kill myself but the main one is my borderline personality disorder
i've been living with this mental illness for years but it's just getting worse every day
i can't and don't want to live like this anymore
my borderline personality disorder makes me a bad person
i'm a burden but i don't want to be a burden anymore and that's why it's better if i just kill myself
nobody loves me or cares about me
nobody will miss me or think about me
i'm an unlovable worthless piece of shit
everyone is better off without me
goodbye

billie

Spoiler: my ctb song

bye

we talked in chat once or twice

everyone always seemed to like the stuff you said, you got a lot of positive reactions

<3 sorry life has been so hard

if you're still alive, it's ok to change your mind

 

[not-2-b-the-answer]

Wishing you peace and eternal rest from this horrible world.

 

[locked*n*loaded]

Rest in peace friend. Rest in peace.

 

[spenshart]

i hope you find your peace

 

[plan c]

billie dear. always in my heart

 

[thebelljarrr]

This is one of my favorite songs, you'll be on my mind whenever I listen to it. Goodbye love