Goodbye

[Lara Francis]

I write this thread with apprehension and a degree of sadness. I have been a member for some time and this forum has been a platform to speak to some kind and supportive people who truly understand the depths of despair we can reach.
I am incredibly grateful to those people and to the staff who work so hard and tirelessly to keep the site going (despite pro lifers!) which allows us freedom of speech and choices.

I have felt suicidal for the past few years and this has not changed but after my recent failed attempt at beachy head due to police intervention, I am sectioned again and I just can't keep going round and round like this!

Suicidal intent does not by pass parents and that is sad. Having my son was the best day of my life but loosing me through suicide would be the worst day of his life especially after he has lost his dad already.

I am far from recovery but I am done with psychiatry and hospital admits. I have inflicted so much trauma on myself through numerous attempts which takes me further away from getting my son back. I really do feel that the wrong parent died as my husband would have coped more admirably.
My son is a wonderful young man and I mean the world to him so this has to carry me through.
I know things will not be easy as suicidal intent seems to be my default setting and established way of thinking.
I have all the info on methods but I hope I can finally see my way out of the dark and rebuild my life.
I am absolutely pro choice, so wish everyone peace and happiness in life or death. I will self ban after this post.
Love Lara x

 

[Jumper Geo]

Best of luck for the future Lara, I hope you and your son have a happy life together.

Cheers

Geo

 

[KleinerWolf]

Take care Lara.
Wishing you and your son lifelong happiness.

 

[Mr2005]

I write this thread with apprehension and a degree of sadness. I have been a member for some time and this forum has been a platform to speak to some kind and supportive people who truly understand the depths of despair we can reach.
I am incredibly grateful to those people and to the staff who work so hard and tirelessly to keep the site going (despite pro lifers!) which allows us freedom of speech and choices.

I have felt suicidal for the past few years and this has not changed but after my recent failed attempt at beachy head due to police intervention, I am sectioned again and I just can't keep going round and round like this!

Suicidal intent does not by pass parents and that is sad. Having my son was the best day of my life but loosing me through suicide would be the worst day of his life especially after he has lost his dad already.

I am far from recovery but I am done with psychiatry and hospital admits. I have inflicted so much trauma on myself through numerous attempts which takes me further away from getting my son back. I really do feel that the wrong parent died as my husband would have coped more admirably.
My son is a wonderful young man and I mean the world to him so this has to carry me through.
I know things will not be easy as suicidal intent seems to be my default setting and established way of thinking.
I have all the info on methods but I hope I can finally see my way out of the dark and rebuild my life.
I am absolutely pro choice, so wish everyone peace and happiness in life or death. I will self ban after this post.
Love Lara x

Good luck Lara. I've known you (vaguely) since my stint on Suicide Forum. Coming out of this alive is something to be proud of

 

[Darkhaven]

Goodbye Lara.
This post brought some warmth to my heart.
I believe that embryonic started relationships between a mother and a son/daughter can truly be the strongest, most resilient and moving bonds there is in the universe.
I have no doubt that you will triumph and live very happy and fulfilling moments with your boy.
I too was brought up by a single mother and i can definately relate to what you said.
Take care of yourself and be happy, Lara!
Farewell!

 

[MsMaudlin]

Good luck to you and your son!
So happy you have turned this around, and I wish you an abundance of happiness
❤

 

[Kikoo Loool]

Farewell, best of luck

 

[Step40]

I rarely write here but as a mother I understand how hard it is. Good luck to you and your son on moving forward x

 

[MZALA]

 

[KUA]

I write this thread with apprehension and a degree of sadness. I have been a member for some time and this forum has been a platform to speak to some kind and supportive people who truly understand the depths of despair we can reach.
I am incredibly grateful to those people and to the staff who work so hard and tirelessly to keep the site going (despite pro lifers!) which allows us freedom of speech and choices.

I have felt suicidal for the past few years and this has not changed but after my recent failed attempt at beachy head due to police intervention, I am sectioned again and I just can't keep going round and round like this!

Suicidal intent does not by pass parents and that is sad. Having my son was the best day of my life but loosing me through suicide would be the worst day of his life especially after he has lost his dad already.

I am far from recovery but I am done with psychiatry and hospital admits. I have inflicted so much trauma on myself through numerous attempts which takes me further away from getting my son back. I really do feel that the wrong parent died as my husband would have coped more admirably.
My son is a wonderful young man and I mean the world to him so this has to carry me through.
I know things will not be easy as suicidal intent seems to be my default setting and established way of thinking.
I have all the info on methods but I hope I can finally see my way out of the dark and rebuild my life.
I am absolutely pro choice, so wish everyone peace and happiness in life or death. I will self ban after this post.
Love Lara x

I wish you all the best Lara

 

[Broken Chimera]

I wish the best for you and your son. Good luck.

 

[Morphosis]

Yours has always been one of my favourite profile pics. All the best Lara and I hope you find some peace.
I haven't managed to change my own default setting from suicidal yet, but I think it's inspirational that you made the decision to try for the sake of your son. I hope things work out better for you in future.

 

[Lara Francis]

Thankyou for all your kind messages,they are very much appreciated. I would put a love emoji reaction to them all but it doesn't seem to work.

so love and hugs to you all xx

 

[Deleted member 17949]

Good luck bro

 

[Soul]

Beautiful Lara! Be well, be safe, feel loved x

 

[Deleted member 1465]

Good luck Lara, sad to see you go, but happy that you are making a positive choice. This place can suck you in and make it too easy to not take those steps, so it's good that you are making such a bold choice.