permanently tired
it's never enough
- Nov 8, 2023
- 266
So I had a psych visit approximately a year ago and received a bill for a psych eval which is paid off, however I receive another bill today and and it says type: psych er. Wtv the fuck that is supposed to mean 
. The world rlly be testing how much I want to die isn't it? I'm not in the mood to deal with disputing it nor do I want to pay it. I could, but what if another bill just pops up? Then I'll actually give this stupid healthcare system a reason to detain me. Fuck america, the ppl who run it, the ppl who keep it running, and some other grievance I'm having.
I'm tempted to go now, but that requires sufficient planning bc I live with other ppl. Yay, I fucking hate ppl. I'll probably be half frozen before I die if I attempt outside in this weather so that's unpleasant. I just want to watch this hell hole and its inhabitants burn. I hope, I rlly fucking hope that the ppl directly related to my decline all suffer immensely. Ik they probably won't, there is no justice in this world. At most, they will grow old and see their loved ones die, be afflicted with conditions that come with age and a momentarily unpleasant guaranteed death. They deserve much worse. I don't even want to describe the torture I want inflicted onto them. Engraved into their mind. Perhaps I'll get lucky and their lives will stolen from them while they rot, waiting for it to end.
. The world rlly be testing how much I want to die isn't it? I'm not in the mood to deal with disputing it nor do I want to pay it. I could, but what if another bill just pops up? Then I'll actually give this stupid healthcare system a reason to detain me. Fuck america, the ppl who run it, the ppl who keep it running, and some other grievance I'm having. I'm tempted to go now, but that requires sufficient planning bc I live with other ppl. Yay, I fucking hate ppl. I'll probably be half frozen before I die if I attempt outside in this weather so that's unpleasant. I just want to watch this hell hole and its inhabitants burn. I hope, I rlly fucking hope that the ppl directly related to my decline all suffer immensely. Ik they probably won't, there is no justice in this world. At most, they will grow old and see their loved ones die, be afflicted with conditions that come with age and a momentarily unpleasant guaranteed death. They deserve much worse. I don't even want to describe the torture I want inflicted onto them. Engraved into their mind. Perhaps I'll get lucky and their lives will stolen from them while they rot, waiting for it to end.
