Got fired a couple hours ago, from the only job I ever liked

[slamjoetry]

So I used this site fairly frequently about 6 months ago, until I really started putting my life together. I got an apartment, got on medication, and made a lot of progress on myself and the way I process negative emotions. It helped a lot that I worked for two years at a job that I really enjoyed. It didn't pay great but I felt comfortable there, and I liked everyone I worked with. I don't really have any close friends, so getting to talk with my coworkers was a really great thing, and the biggest thing that got me out of bed in the morning. The one problem was the owner of the place, this millionaire guy who owned a ton of other businesses and didn't really know how any of them worked. And for some reason he always had a personal grudge against me. He talked to me different than the rest of the workers and got on my ass about things everyone else got away with. And today he finally pulled the trigger and fired me. Saying it's because I was a few minutes late a couple times. So now I've lost one of the only things that made me happy, and I'm trying really hard to keep it together. I didn't go straight to cutting myself putting together a suicide plan, which is progress, but this is the first time suicide has even come to my mind in months. I'm really scared of what lies ahead of me and I'm scared of losing the control over myself that I had gained. I don't want to go back to square one. If anyone has any advice, encouragement, experiences, or anything else to share that might help, I'd really appreciate it. Cause right now I'm trying my hardest to keep it together.

 

[Blue Dream]

If you crumble and start cutting yourself, etc, your asshole ex boss would not give a toss, might even be glad. It also wouldn't change anything.
Don't let entitled pigs with money get to you.

 

[derpyderpins]

Well, I got fired a little over a year ago now. It was an absolute punch in the gut. No performance issues ever mentioned, they just wanted me to be billing clients more to make them more money, but the last I heard about it is that I'd improved in that department since I was told to get my hours up.

I went to Korea to meet my fiance's family. They all had met my fiance. We had the "we're friends!" office vibe which is obviously always fake. I took a gamble and stuck with them when they broke off from the main firm to start a new one. While I was in Korea on a tight schedule, I did remote work for them. Missed some time with my new family.

The second I got back from that trip they immediately fired me, no notice period or anything. The guy who interviewed me and hired me didn't even come out of his office. There wasn't a meeting, just "let's talk . . . today's your last day," and what that meant was get out quickly. They had the fucking HR bitch stand outside my room while I packed my things up. I had to call my fiance, who stayed in Korea a little longer - because fuck me I didn't want to be out of the office too long, so I gave up time with her - to be with her family, and tell her on the other side of the earth that I now was unemployed.

(Never let anyone tell you lawyers aren't all bastards).

Anyway that's my sob story so you can believe I've been somewhere in that area. Just destroyed me. I was always terrified that I just couldn't do it and something like that would happen and I couldn't recover because no one would want me after I was canned. My body felt like it wouldn't hold together and I'd turn into the tang from end of Eva.

My advice for right now is to realize that you are not in a state to make any choices, plans, evaluations, moves, gambits, etc. You've got to breath for a couple days. I don't even want to give you more advice beyond that for now. You have to process that it happened.

[btw, I got a better, higher paying job. Still dealing with shit but I'm at a much better place than I was at that moment when those bastards did me so dirty. I'm better for not being with them. At the end of the day it's just a job. They all suck to some extent.]

 

[not-2-b-the-answer]

I just wanted to say that I feel your pain. I had that happen to me as well. I don't have any advice. I'm not good at it anyway.
I hope you can find something else you can enjoy.
By the way, I like the blink 182 reference.
By the way, I like the blink 182 reference.