Aimiya
Autism
- Nov 24, 2023
- 31
Hanging is scary, I start hyperventilating a little before even touching the rope.
Searched for some videos to familiarize myself with it, didn't help much.
Helium is the dream, but lots of people talk about how Helium isn't pure, that it has added Oxygen so it won't kill you, idk if I believe that but..
Pills would be easier to get, the action is more natural, maybe I'll look into it later, but as I know it's not as fast.
Anyway, feeling defeated, alive for another day, because I'm an anxious overthinker. Maybe some alcohol would help, idk.
It's hard to accept I'm not ready for it and that maybe it was just drama, but for now I'm done.
Searched for some videos to familiarize myself with it, didn't help much.
Helium is the dream, but lots of people talk about how Helium isn't pure, that it has added Oxygen so it won't kill you, idk if I believe that but..
Pills would be easier to get, the action is more natural, maybe I'll look into it later, but as I know it's not as fast.
Anyway, feeling defeated, alive for another day, because I'm an anxious overthinker. Maybe some alcohol would help, idk.
It's hard to accept I'm not ready for it and that maybe it was just drama, but for now I'm done.