hanging myself with a scarf wrapped around the door knob

[hikaru13]

I'm gonna try to do this. I hope it goes well for me. I'm really tired of everything. Nobody cares and so does my family. Everything needs to end at some. This will give me peace because right now, ironically, I feel so suffocated because of the situations I am in. I wanna let go because I've reached my limits now. No matter what I do I'm scared of things changing. I'm scared of chasing after people that I loved.

Well if things don't go well, you guys will see me again online! Thank you to this community for accepting me for who I am as a person. I love you all!

 

[NearlyIrrelevantCake]

Godspeed.

 

[imtiredasf]

I'm gonna try to do this. I hope it goes well for me. I'm really tired of everything. Nobody cares and so does my family. Everything needs to end at some. This will give me peace because right now, ironically, I feel so suffocated because of the situations I am in. I wanna let go because I've reached my limits now. No matter what I do I'm scared of things changing. I'm scared of chasing after people that I loved.

Well if things don't go well, you guys will see me again online! Thank you to this community for accepting me for who I am as a person. I love you all!

I hope you find the peace you're looking for.

 

[iwanttobedead]

I'm gonna try to do this. I hope it goes well for me. I'm really tired of everything. Nobody cares and so does my family. Everything needs to end at some. This will give me peace because right now, ironically, I feel so suffocated because of the situations I am in. I wanna let go because I've reached my limits now. No matter what I do I'm scared of things changing. I'm scared of chasing after people that I loved.

Well if things don't go well, you guys will see me again online! Thank you to this community for accepting me for who I am as a person. I love you all!

<3

 

[Leonszabs]

I love you too If you do come back online, please feel free to message me if you would like

 

[hikaru13]

Thank you for all the comfort you all have given me. I failed trying to find a good spot that'd block my carotid arteries plus I was doing it at my bf's place since he and his sister left with their parents to go to church, plus I couldn't do it at home (I have little to none private space at home) so by the time it reached a certain time, I just went home to avoid risks of them stopping me or being disappointed in me more.

I will retry this Tuesday so while the days are running, I'll start preparing the knots and farewell letters to everyone that I loved.

 

[bambibambam]

Thank you for all the comfort you all have given me. I failed trying to find a good spot that'd block my carotid arteries plus I was doing it at my bf's place since he and his sister left with their parents to go to church, plus I couldn't do it at home (I have little to none private space at home) so by the time it reached a certain time, I just went home to avoid risks of them stopping me or being disappointed in me more.

I will retry this Tuesday so while the days are running, I'll start preparing the knots and farewell letters to everyone that I loved.

hi, im glad you're okay and still with us. i understand not having enough privacy at home and i don't know how your relationship is with him…but it's honestly not a good idea to attempt at your boyfriends place. it can be traumatizing for him to walk in and see his lover in such a state. it will feel like he had something to do with it and he will have to live with heavy guilt, a rule that me and many other people who want to ctb or have ctb is to never involve strangers or innocent people, that's why it's encouraged to book hotels or ctb away from home. i hope you can look at some options, let's be more considerate of the few people who DO care about you.

 

[hikaru13]

hi, im glad you're okay and still with us. i understand not having enough privacy at home and i don't know how your relationship is with him…but it's honestly not a good idea to attempt at your boyfriends place. it can be traumatizing for him to walk in and see his lover in such a state. it will feel like he had something to do with it and he will have to live with heavy guilt, a rule that me and many other people who want to ctb or have ctb is to never involve strangers or innocent people, that's why it's encouraged to book hotels or ctb away from home. i hope you can look at some options, let's be more considerate of the few people who DO care about you.

I honestly don't know if he cares about me still. He's actually not my bf but I think that's the most coherent way of calling what I have with him. We're just friends acting like couples. I'm extremely scared of the changes that'll happen after a huge fight that we had. I can't swallow it anymore I mean it was partly my fault too but I'm way too exhausted to earn his trust again. idk if it'll be worth it. I do love him but I can't beg for him to stay the same anymore.

Sorry for the ramblings. I did thought about the worries of them seeing me in that state but I don't have any other choices in here. I'm only 19 and broke. Living in a bad country so you get how little of an option I have here. I only took that opportunity since for the first time I was alone.

Thank you for the response and care I appreciate it a lot.

 

[FuneralCry]

I hope you find the relief you search for, I wish you the best.