Discussion Has anybody made big life changes in an attempt to get better?

[End Piece]

I hit this big wall a few months ago and became acutely suicidal. I've been depressed on and off for a looong time, but even when I'm not, I've been treading water, never really progressing. I've realized that if I am going to go on living, I can't half ass it anymore. I need a big overhaul. One of my 'triggers' is this feeling that I'll never be independent, so I pulled the trigger and am finally moving out of mom's place in a few weeks!

 

[Susannah]

Yes, I've tried several times to change my life. Therapists and psychiatrists told me to do this and that (stand up to my mother, stop drinking, start taking care of myself). It ended up worse than before, cause people around me thought something had happen, and that I needed help, because they didn't recognize my behavior. I ended up in psyc ward.

I had to "find myself" again after 2 months at the ward, and 3 years passed before I felt "normal". My final solution was to stop listening to other people and NEVER take advices from anyone. I started being myself again. I drink when I want to. I dance when I want to. I don't give shit about what other people might think of me. I smile (also when I don't feel like smiling). I "lie" to myself and everybody else everyday, no I don't drink or take any drugs. Yes, I'm super healthy, and I do my workout at least 4 times a week. Eventually I started believe my own lies, and today, it's the true me.

 

[Final Escape]

I'm in the process now. I'm a long time sufferer if complex ptsd. A lot of this work I'm doing it on my own with the guide of a complex ptsd book by Pete Walker. I had decided to try virtual emdr online which appears to be helping. It does take consistent work to overcome complex ptsd. You didn't develop maladaptive coping overnight so u can't get over all this without working at it over time. You literally have to reparent yourself and install new programming.

 

[azucaramargo]

My final solution was to stop listening to other people and NEVER take advices from anyone. I started being myself again. I drink when I want to. I dance when I want to. I don't give shit about what other people might think of me. I smile (also when I don't feel like smiling). I "lie" to myself and everybody else everyday, no I don't drink or take any drugs. Yes, I'm super healthy, and I do my workout at least 4 times a week. Eventually I started believe my own lies, and today, it's the true me.

God, I loved this!

 

[Winniethepooh]

I tried. I've tried to run away to Asia twice, but I always ended up coming back :-(

 

[azucaramargo]

I tried. I've tried to run away to Asia twice, but I always ended up coming back :-(

Ooooh, this is so glamorous! I would love to hear more about these escapes to Asia, if you were willing.

 

[mattwitt]

I quit my job of 11 years just over 2 years ago to deal with my physical problems and suicidal thoughts.

 

[enjoy]

currently about to begin this journey. i know it's going to be hard, but i think i want to get better... and this is the only way where i have a chance.

 

[barty1013]

I tried. I've tried to run away to Asia twice, but I always ended up coming back :-(

Well did you wander about and have a great experience? Find anything helpful while there?
I have both physical and mental issues...saving money for last ditch attempt to get help outside of western medicine and western culture...and will take ayahuasca and/or Iboga, look for some kind of spiritual culture/community or place in nature...

 

[shoganai]

One of my 'triggers' is this feeling that I'll never be independent, so I pulled the trigger and am finally moving out of mom's place in a few weeks!

Hey, this is awesome. Good for you. I hope everything works out well for you.

I made a major life change in response to suicidality as well. I wouldn't say mine was acute...but I had wanted to die for eight years at that point and had a huge precipitating event. This resulted in me researching methods for the first time. So, I suppose I went from passive to slightly active.

I realized it wouldn't be a good idea, and others online suggested instead of ctb I make a big life change - what did I have to lose? So I chose to make some major changes in my life.

It didn't make me better. If anything, my depression has worsened. Actually, I've been coming on here a lot in the past year or two to research and see that I'm not "crazy".

But I'm rambling. Perhaps moving out will help you. Sometimes a change in environment truly helps. Please keep us posted, and take care.

I tried. I've tried to run away to Asia twice, but I always ended up coming back :-(

Eyyy that's what I'm doing. I don't want to come back...one of my coworkers and I were talking about it, and they said I was talking like I was on a suicide mission.

I laughed hard at that one. Sigh, too real.