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Jeebo5021
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- Oct 8, 2024
- 66
I've been suicidal for the past about 5 weeks now. At the moment, logic is saving me from attempting suicide as failure will make things a lot worse. Logic also dictates that the pain will eventually stop. It may well stop one day and I can feel normal again. Otherwise, it's not possible to live forever, so the pain will stop when I die naturally. Every day that passes is another day closer to my death. It would be nice if I could enjoy it again, play video games, go to the gym, but god this depression spiral seems to be going on and on. I'm talking to a counsellor almost every day now. Every time I manage to fool myself into thinking I can get by, the thoughts of worthlessness just come back again. It's made me think that maybe it must be true. That's logic talking again. If so many people start to treat like you don't matter, then it must tell you something.