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RandomGirl52

RandomGirl52

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have you ever told anyone about your depression, suicidal thoughts, plan or anything like that? And how did they react, what did they say ect.
 
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aloneagainnaturally

aloneagainnaturally

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Yep. He told me I wasn't "enlightened," was selfish, and being woe is me. Later told me he thought I was crying crocodile tears and don't actually have emotions. Lovely experience…
 
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MatrixPrisoner

MatrixPrisoner

Enlightened
Jul 8, 2023
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I've gotten to the point where I openly talk about it pretty matter-of-fact-ly. I just simply tell people I could go any time in the near future. I don't expect anyone to care or try and help me. I just talk about it freely becauseI want people to understand why I act the way I do, and I don't want it to be a shocking surprise for them when I finally do it.
 
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undecidedfool

I'm just here.
Oct 29, 2024
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I've gotten to the point where I openly talk about it pretty matter-of-fact-ly. I just simply tell people I could go any time in the near future. I don't expect anyone to care or try and help me. I just talk about it freely becauseI want people to understand why I act the way I do, and I don't want it to be a shocking surprise for them when I finally do it.
Yeah, I do this a lot too. I limit how much I talk about catching the bus, but that's just because I'm a bit of a coward at times. But I've been depressed so long that no one I know is surprised (or even too worried I think) about it
 
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hermes

hermes

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Jun 4, 2021
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have you ever told anyone about your depression, suicidal thoughts, plan or anything like that? And how did they react, what did they say ect.
My baby brother said "everyone will die at some point in time. You should die today. Go jump in front of train right now" 🙂
 
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LukaParrot

LukaParrot

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Dec 18, 2024
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My first experience in trying to vent with a psychologist, being really direct about my thoughts and suicide... was like...

"Sir, sir..oh, your case is very serious and I'm not prepared to attend you. You need a psychiatrist, goodbye."

She was right.... my first appointment with a psychiatrist, i accidentally saw what he was writing at a small notebook, his grocery list. Fuck me!
 
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StrawberryRed

StrawberryRed

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Oct 16, 2024
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I told a girl I considered a close friend at the time. We talked twice since then and i avoided the subject because I didn't what to make her uncomfortable. A week after I intitally confessed she told me that we cant be friends anymore because being around me " made her too sad". Not important anymore though, I've moved on.
 
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dontwakemeup

dontwakemeup

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Nov 11, 2024
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I never wanted suicide to be taboo and I use to speak openly about it. I told a few people and they got me a 5150. When I was discharged, I never spoke to any of them ever again! I won't mention it to anyone again. They saved me but what was it worth? They are all stupid and I feel bad for ever trusting them.
 
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Forveleth

I knew I forgot to do something when I was 15...
Mar 26, 2024
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Told my parents when I was 15. Their response was "We know high school is difficult. Just wait until college, it will get better." It did not.

I have told my partner to his face that I no longer wanted to be alive and he did not really seem to care.
 
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bananaolympus

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Dec 12, 2024
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Yeah a psychiatrist and psychologist working together, the psychiatrist reacted indifferent just gave me the meds the sessions lasted like 10 min max, just writting the prescription or whatever he was doing on the laptop, the psychologist presented himself like a salesman guarantee of 12 sessions and i would be okay, in those sessions he made me do some puzzles and told me to breath because it increases your intelligence by 25% or so and recommended mindfulness, he treated me like an student teaching how anxiety works etc completed the sessions both gave me the okay, couple of months later i attempted suicide, the psychologist was thoughts and prayers the psychiatrist was like should have increased the dose
 
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MetroPunk

MetroPunk

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May 21, 2024
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Any time I've ever spoken up "like I'm supposed to do when I'm feeling this way," I get treated as though I'm being dramatic, threatened with a hospital visit, or the person permanently sees me as a lunatic.

Honestly, sometimes the response I get from people when I seek help makes me just want to go through with it more. That's why I only speak about it here now. Oh and by sometimes I meant absolutely every time.
 
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sadseraph

sadseraph

the point of no return
Oct 1, 2024
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have you ever told anyone about your depression, suicidal thoughts, plan or anything like that? And how did they react, what did they say ect.
ive only told my best friend about my suicide plans. i dont think he totally understood, but tbf i couldnt manage to tell him everything about it out of fear that he'd get too worried about me

its difficult talking to people about my depression because usually i have to end up consoling them in the end lol
 
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J&L383

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Jul 18, 2023
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My baby brother said "everyone will die at some point in time. You should die today. Go jump in front of train right now" 🙂
Wow, that's pretty brutal. I haven't really brought this up with anyone. But I don't think my siblings would be surprised if my death came at my own hands.
 
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MetroPunk

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May 21, 2024
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My baby brother said "everyone will die at some point in time. You should die today. Go jump in front of train right now" 🙂
Yeah my younger brother used to tell me "fxxxing kill yourself" all the time. Parents were totally fine with it. I think I was 14 and he was 12 when it started. Siblings can be the worst people on earth sometimes. I no longer talk to him. I'm 32. It's been years. Don't even miss him a little bit.
 
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hermes

hermes

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Jun 4, 2021
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Wow, that's pretty brutal. I haven't really brought this up with anyone. But I don't think my siblings would be surprised if my death came at my own hands.
He will gain financially a lot. So sooner i leave better it is for him.
Disgusting World.
Yeah my younger brother used to tell me "fxxxing kill yourself" all the time. Parents were totally fine with it. I think I was 14 and he was 12 when it started. Siblings can be the worst people on earth sometimes. I no longer talk to him. I'm 32. It's been years. Don't even miss him a little bit.
I can totally relate to you.

Cant be close to someone who disrespectfully pushes you to die.
 
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sadseraph

sadseraph

the point of no return
Oct 1, 2024
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I never wanted suicide to be taboo and I use to speak openly about it. I told a few people and they got me a 5150. When I was discharged, I never spoke to any of them ever again! I won't mention it to anyone again. They saved me but what was it worth? They are all stupid and I feel bad for ever trusting them.
this is what ive always worried about… a lot of the time they have the best intentions and just want you to be in a controlled environment but god it sucks to be treated like a lab rat for the way that you feel, especially when youre searching for comfort from the people around you
 
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Malfunction

Malfunction

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Jul 27, 2024
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I'd tell anyone the same thing.

If my quality of life goes to shit because of my health, I'm tapping out. I'm not needlessly suffering any more than I have to.

Don't think anyone takes it seriously. Kinda makes me chuckle, because you'll hear it said so often that it was such a surprise and that no one expected it.

I just hope to find a method soon. Though honestly, if I had the means, it would take a huge weight off my shoulders. I would probably delay my exit knowing I could do it anytime.
 
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dontwakemeup

dontwakemeup

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Nov 11, 2024
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this is what ive always worried about… a lot of the time they have the best intentions and just want you to be in a controlled environment but god it sucks to be treated like a lab rat for the way that you feel, especially when youre searching for comfort from the people around you
2 Friends I knew for decades knew my basically whole life of trauma and abuse. They watched and I eventually ended up at a pain clinic, and had a lot of personal probelms with my children. It became unbearable to deal with all of thise things and i felt justified saying, "im not scared to die and im ready!" I mistaken them as being empathetic and understanding. Why would anyone want to continue to watch you suffer every day and crying? I had planned my last attempt and it was a great idea I had. I confided in my friend (who is a suicide survivor) and I told her I want tell her a date but I'll be leaving soon. Hours later there was a knock at my door. They asked me my name and I just went, I didn't care, I was so angry at them and I left. I knew once I returned home I would never speak to any of them again! I hope they have made peace with their decision because now I'm gone for good.

I thought I had a support group. We told each other everything. I've learned people in your real life will never be ok with you talking about suicide, it will never be an appropriate reason.

As far as my psych stay, I just slept for 4 days. My pain medication makes me sleepy so the time was easy and they didn't force you to participate. So that's my story.

I would advise you to keep those thoughts on this site and only here or you can possibly end up with a psych hold. Long as you say you have a plan and access to that plan they can take you.

I wish they would have just let me slip away and respected my wishes.
I'd tell anyone the same thing.

If my quality of life goes to shit because of my health, I'm tapping out. I'm not needlessly suffering any more than I have to.

Don't think anyone takes it seriously. Kinda makes me chuckle, because you'll hear it said so often that it was such a surprise and that no one expected it.

I just hope to find a method soon. Though honestly, if I had the means, it would take a huge weight off my shoulders. I would probably delay my exit knowing I could do it anytime.
They will all say, "There were no signs!"😒
 
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Forever Sleep

Earned it we have...
May 4, 2022
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I've mostly only told people when I got the sense they felt the same way. In which case, it was like here really- comparing experiences. Or, if I got the sense they were very pro choice. In which case, we talked about it in more genral terms- the morality of it from both perspectives etc. I told a best friend once and I think they were just sympathetic.

That's just discussing ideation though and, the general right to die. Not sure I'd trust anyone enough or even think it fair on them to tell them it's a possibility I'm seriously considering it and have a method ready.
 
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