Have you told people you're close to how you feel?

[Stormo]

I'm considering telling the 2 closest people to me how I'm feeling and my thoughts to ctb soon. I am curious if anyone has told someone they're close to and how they reacted?

Of course no 2 people are the same. I'm not sure what kind of reaction I'd get.my best friend already knows I'm suicidal along with other things. The other knows about my C-PTSD and struggles with depression but I'm unsure he knows the extent.

The past few years have been difficult yet eye opening for me. I can really feel that the world and society is about to have some big changes, not for the better. I haven't felt true enjoyment or happiness in years; sometimes I question if I ever did. I am seriously considering ctb before the end of this year.

One coping mechanism I had in mid teens was always planning something to look forward to, to keep me going. I have planned to go to a spa and Michelin restaurant for my birthday which is about a month away. After this I have nothing to look forward to.

Maybe I seek empathy or compassion by telling people how I feel? I don't really know my motive behind telling them. I just want to.

I'm just curious, how have people reacted when you told them how you really feel? Or do you all keep it to yourself and why?

 

[tend a dead garden]

Having CTPSD myself alot of people who know me know that I've obviously struggled alot . If they know you well they should know that just living is very difficult with CTPSD as getting any effective treatment is very difficult.

Telling someone that you intend to CTB can elicit a caring response in that they express concern and will want to talk in a caring way.
Or it can elicit an angry response, a "why are you telling me, your making me responsible if you do anything!"

even if you know these people well it's difficult to guess what the result of telling them would be. But if it's something your thinking of I would say to think about doing it if your CTB is coming soon as you don't want to go with thing's left unsaid, or at least i wouldn't. Even though i don't tell people in real life about wanting to let go, if i had a definitive date i would defiantly consider reaching out to at least one person.

Hope this is of some help

 

[akiyama346]

I told them once and they yelled at me and told me "I'm threatening them" and that I'm selfish

 

[Stormo]

I told them once and they yelled at me and told me "I'm threatening them" and that I'm selfish

Sounds like awful people tbh. I hate the whole view that suicide is selfish. I don't think it's selfish to put an end to suffering.

In my experience, the same people who call it selfish do not try to help the person with depression. I find it selfish that people expect us to stay alive for their sake.

Maybe that was worded badly, sorry I am tired but those are my general thoughts around that idea. It is the view of suicide I like the least.

Having CTPSD myself alot of people who know me know that I've obviously struggled alot . If they know you well they should know that just living is very difficult with CTPSD as getting any effective treatment is very difficult.

Telling someone that you intend to CTB can elicit a caring response in that they express concern and will want to talk in a caring way.
Or it can elicit an angry response, a "why are you telling me, your making me responsible if you do anything!"

even if you know these people well it's difficult to guess what the result of telling them would be. But if it's something your thinking of I would say to think about doing it if your CTB is coming soon as you don't want to go with thing's left unsaid, or at least i wouldn't. Even though i don't tell people in real life about wanting to let go, if i had a definitive date i would defiantly consider reaching out to at least one person.

Hope this is of some help

Thank you! I'm sorry that you also struggle with C-PTSD. yes, treatment is extremely difficult to even access. I've been trying for almost 5 years now. I have been turned away due to history of drug use or the extent of my trauma. When I finally found an organisation that helped, I had to move for work. When I returned they refuse to treat me. I am done reaching out for therapy now. I will be sure to write and document this in my note, just so people are well aware that my country's healthcare system truly failed me.

I tried to read a Pete Walker book, it was quite useful and id recommend you to read it as well, if you would like to understand your brain/mind more and try to heal. I haven't finished it yet as things in life have become stressful too.

Thank you for sharing your experience and advise though! The person I am thinking of telling is usually void of emotion, unless he is angry at me for trivial things. It is hard to imagine his response. Maybe it's for the best I do not tell him.

 

[Upon a hanging Body]

I kinda act out and my attempts are usually very known. Everyone knows and it's at the point were they seem more and more like they don't care.