
Green Destiny
Life isn't worth the trouble.
- Nov 16, 2019
- 871
It's been going on 4 years since I was diagnosed with a stomach ulcer that makes eating food downright impossible, I'm literally starving every single day because eating certain food (basically anything and everything) upsets my stomach to the point where I feel like i'm going to suffocate from terrible burning in my esophagus. I've lost so much weight which is bad because before I got diagnosed, I didn't weigh much to begin with. I want to GORGE myself on BBQ Wings and Pizza and Burgers and Chicken Strips with Fries because i'm so fuckin' tired of being hungry every minute of the day. I feel so hollow in the most literal sense because I can't remember a time when I could eat my fill without worrying about throwing up in the middle of the night and gasping for breath. If this is truly what the next 10, 20 or 30 years of my life is going to be like then I simply refuse to go through with it. I will not endure such a terrible hardship.