BitterlyAlive
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- Apr 8, 2020
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I would only mention it because I know this person very well. They can accurately gauge whether or not I'm a harm to myself based on what they already know about me.
In the assessment, suicide is bound to come up. I attempted to kill myself but stopped before I actually harmed myself (literature says this is an "aborted" attempt). I strongly believe it was due to my medication. The meds increased my suicidal urges to where I attempted using a method I would have never picked in my right mind. I stopped because I realized it would have been horrific, and I don't want to die (*yet). But there was the intent, because I remember thinking "This is my chance, it'll kill me and all of this will be over". There was also the impulse due to the meds. If I didn't stop it from happening at the last moment, I likely would have died.
I would appreciate anyone's advice. I'm looking to see what's wrong with me, so I'd rather be as open as I can while protecting myself. I absolutely cannot be hospitalized.
In the assessment, suicide is bound to come up. I attempted to kill myself but stopped before I actually harmed myself (literature says this is an "aborted" attempt). I strongly believe it was due to my medication. The meds increased my suicidal urges to where I attempted using a method I would have never picked in my right mind. I stopped because I realized it would have been horrific, and I don't want to die (*yet). But there was the intent, because I remember thinking "This is my chance, it'll kill me and all of this will be over". There was also the impulse due to the meds. If I didn't stop it from happening at the last moment, I likely would have died.
I would appreciate anyone's advice. I'm looking to see what's wrong with me, so I'd rather be as open as I can while protecting myself. I absolutely cannot be hospitalized.