Hi,
New to these forums, have lurked for a few weeks now and found them to be such a help in giving me info.
I was wondering who is in UK like me as maybe they can advise on shipping of N, maybe be a partner, someone to talk to etc. I am in South of England.
I have been thinking of CTB for a while now, some days I feel it more than others. I am really feeling it now though having just been unexpectedly left by my fiancé. (not the first time ive been left by someone and i just cant take the pain any more and just give up even trying again) Maybe compared to others on here my reason isn't as strong but I do believe unless you live in someone else's shoes and feel what they feel you can never judge. I can say for 100% certain if I had N with me now I would drink it no problem. I think my will to survive will stop me completing certain acts for example I went down to the train line last night and had a look and the access etc and even the fact that it was really cold put me off the idea slightly (not that I was going to do it then anyway). I first looked at the partial suspension method as I believe that is doable in my flat where I live alone. Maybe full suspension is too as I can open up my loft hatch and tie onto the wooden beams above. As stupid as it sounds I worry I cant even tie the knot properly. I am useless at practical stuff.
New to these forums, have lurked for a few weeks now and found them to be such a help in giving me info.
I was wondering who is in UK like me as maybe they can advise on shipping of N, maybe be a partner, someone to talk to etc. I am in South of England.
I have been thinking of CTB for a while now, some days I feel it more than others. I am really feeling it now though having just been unexpectedly left by my fiancé. (not the first time ive been left by someone and i just cant take the pain any more and just give up even trying again) Maybe compared to others on here my reason isn't as strong but I do believe unless you live in someone else's shoes and feel what they feel you can never judge. I can say for 100% certain if I had N with me now I would drink it no problem. I think my will to survive will stop me completing certain acts for example I went down to the train line last night and had a look and the access etc and even the fact that it was really cold put me off the idea slightly (not that I was going to do it then anyway). I first looked at the partial suspension method as I believe that is doable in my flat where I live alone. Maybe full suspension is too as I can open up my loft hatch and tie onto the wooden beams above. As stupid as it sounds I worry I cant even tie the knot properly. I am useless at practical stuff.
