
Miserious
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- Jul 2, 2023
- 22
I've been thinking and I don't think i can ever move on and stop thinking about cbt without moving out of my parents house. Im just so tired. But i cant get a job due to my mental health being an issue and its just dragging me down further. I feel so trapped. Im sure posting a gofundme would flop immediately since ive tried twice. Therapy is 109 dollars PER APPOINTMENT because my insurance doesn't cover "mental health". Ive tried to get my mom to take me to the psych ward but she never commits because 'she needs more money'. I'm so close to giving up, the light I see is like a pin hole poked into a trash bag suffocating me. I don't know what to do except ask what I should do. I tried running away but my mom just reeled me back in so I'm going to have to move out the hard way but its impossible since she wont let me without completing college and i lost my scholarship due to my mental health declining. So yeah, it feels like im trapped in this perpetual cycle of torment.
It doesn't help every time i confide in her about having suicidal thoughts she shsmes and ridicules me calling me a selfish freak and pathetic because "others have it worse" but never takes me even though she downright states she'll only take me if i have those thoughts so ive given up on telling her.
It doesn't help every time i confide in her about having suicidal thoughts she shsmes and ridicules me calling me a selfish freak and pathetic because "others have it worse" but never takes me even though she downright states she'll only take me if i have those thoughts so ive given up on telling her.
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