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acaiblueberry
Member
- Mar 21, 2023
- 19
I joined this after I saw Tantacruel's video because I wanted to see it for my self instead of relying on a third party source. And, I liked what I saw. It was a way to express how I feel without people just telling me "it gets better" or providing phone numbers I can Google myself.
Then, I stopped posting. I'd occasionally log back in to check on things, but I was mostly gone. I don't really remember why I left.
I've now been without stable housing for a year. Around every 3 months, I get really suicidal. In October, I was hospitalized because of two different failed attempts. Luckily, both were assumed accidental, so I didn't have to go to the psych ward after I was released.
I'm doing a little better now though. This week I was having some thoughts, but I haven't attempted or made steps towards attempting. I'm also back to a healthy weight in my anorexia recovery. Which has been even harder because I'm very sick right now and have trouble keeping down food, but I'm slowly getting better.
I think I might be active here for a little bit again. Being here in a way makes me feel less suicidal. It reminds me that other people feel the way I do. It lets me talk about stuff without feeling ashamed.
Then, I stopped posting. I'd occasionally log back in to check on things, but I was mostly gone. I don't really remember why I left.
I've now been without stable housing for a year. Around every 3 months, I get really suicidal. In October, I was hospitalized because of two different failed attempts. Luckily, both were assumed accidental, so I didn't have to go to the psych ward after I was released.
I'm doing a little better now though. This week I was having some thoughts, but I haven't attempted or made steps towards attempting. I'm also back to a healthy weight in my anorexia recovery. Which has been even harder because I'm very sick right now and have trouble keeping down food, but I'm slowly getting better.
I think I might be active here for a little bit again. Being here in a way makes me feel less suicidal. It reminds me that other people feel the way I do. It lets me talk about stuff without feeling ashamed.