Hope

[DJJE]

I missed an appointment with a psychiatrist today.

After getting caught approaching a bridge and sectioned I've been discharged from the high risk care team into a lower risk care team.

I said I'd go along with it to show my own brother I've tried every avenue before I take my own life.

All the medical teams involved have concerning names and rhetoric. A "care team" is a group to try and keep you alive against your wishes. They fill your head with nonsense about how you have something to live for, and how people care about you. Really they are enforcers of selfish people who are happy for you to suffer in order to satisfy the needs of out of touch virtue signalling idiots who don't give a shit about your suffering. Plan A is to bung you on some drugs and tell you to talk to someone because they know their is no getting better.

The worst thing these people do is try and inspire you to hope again. Do they lack the empathy to understand that you have always been an outcasts. If it wasn't for the unwanted intervention of medics I'd have been a miscarriage. That was the intended plan for me but these people think they no better. Medical professionals are meant to be smart, but they can't work out that every time they lift you up with their lies you simply fall down harder the next time. Not only do they extend suffering they also compound it.

People should have the right to die, but they have it taken away from them by people who don't want to feel bad for a short amount of time. Its better for you to feel bad all the time than for them to have a minor blip.

How fucked up is that.

 

[Sk1n1M1n]

Surely you should of been kept on the high risk team list or kept on observation

 

[Lilacmoon]

Psychiatrists are awful. Doctors are too. The things that some of them do to people in wards still gives me nightmares. Many of them don't have empathy. People like us, generally, don't have the proper help and resources we need to learn to cope with misery and pain all our lives.

That's exactly it. They're uncomfortable with suicide, so they would rather we suffer for the rest of our lives because that way it doesn't affect their sensitivities.

Have a hug, I know have frustrating that must be.

 

[DJJE]

Surely you should of been kept on the high risk team list or kept on observation

Who for?

Psychiatrists are awful. Doctors are too. The things that some of them do to people in wards still gives me nightmares. Many of them don't have empathy. People like us, generally, don't have the proper help and resources we need to learn to cope with misery and pain all our lives.

That's exactly it. They're uncomfortable with suicide, so they would rather we suffer for the rest of our lives because that way it doesn't affect their sensitivities.

Have a hug, I know have frustrating that must be.

A doctors objective is to get to the point where

Psychiatrists are awful. Doctors are too. The things that some of them do to people in wards still gives me nightmares. Many of them don't have empathy. People like us, generally, don't have the proper help and resources we need to learn to cope with misery and pain all our lives.

That's exactly it. They're uncomfortable with suicide, so they would rather we suffer for the rest of our lives because that way it doesn't affect their sensitivities.

Have a hug, I know have frustrating that must be.

A doctors objective is to get you to the point where they can discharge you.

What goes through their head is "what can I do to make this person fuck off ASAP".

That's the way the market works.

They just don't want you to come back, or worse still, have anyone come back with a claim.

 

[timf]

Many who work for institutions approach others with a script in one hand and a schedule in the other. They often fail to understand that when they promise hope, they lack credibility because they are insincere. You might find one person in twenty in an institutional setting who could relate to you as a real person. Even then it would be difficult and limited because their own institution is structured against relationships.

Sadly, this is even the problem with churches because they are often run as institutional systems. With the erosion of the family and social interaction migrating to the internet, it can leave people isolated. Those dealing with depression or other issues are perhaps the first to feel the effects of a society in which real relationships are declining.

This often leaves people with little support. In particular, finding purpose and direction in life can seem elusive. Just like a person stranded on a desert island would first have to find food and water, those abandoned in this world have to seek out what can sustain them on their own.

Some find purpose in living for pleasurable sensations. Others may seek money, power, fame, or popularity. Buddhists seek after enlightenment. Christians are supposed to seek after truth. Hope is more something that grows after a person has found a path that suits him. Finding that path is the key to discovering hope. There is no shortage of people to tell you what they think you should do. I would suggest that you experiment with various directions to see which one resonates for you. For myself, I have found that seeking after truth has yielded the greatest benefit.