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nitz

Member
Aug 29, 2018
31
I am tired, nothing looking forward to.
 
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BaconCheeseburger

BaconCheeseburger

Comfort-eating
Aug 4, 2018
693
I have no idea how I'm doing. This feels like the first time I've ever truly felt alone with my plans (I usually blab too soon or have this urge to tell people). I'm still going to work, going out with people, interacting as normal. The noise of wanting to CTB is amplified in my head and I feel like I shouldn't tell anyone.
 
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Caustic Cardinals

Caustic Cardinals

Enlightened
Sep 1, 2018
1,339
I feel definitely hopeless and trapped
 
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Miss clefable

Enlightened
Aug 23, 2018
1,577
Strangely calm I'm so close now
 
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Smilla

Smilla

Visionary
Apr 30, 2018
2,549
Hopeless and barely functioning.

Trapped as Caustic said.
 
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samhelloall9

Experienced
Jul 16, 2018
297
my anxiety's been through the roof the last week...i got put through a job i don't want due to the floor level and fears of both heights and elevators. elevators because of heights. i'm holding up okay, but i'm just restless and anxious. but that's everyday life for some, they hate being stuck in traffic don't they? ha! :)
i'm coping. i just hope i dont get the job tomorrow. if i do, well i just have to hope time can't move fast enough. but oh well, like everyone else, i'm just passing the time. i mean, what else is there to do but live? haha!
 
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RottingFlowerBrains

RottingFlowerBrains

Student
Sep 10, 2018
193
And that's how I'm holding up today. No where near as strong as I have been
 
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RM5998

RM5998

Sack of Meat
Sep 3, 2018
2,202
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RM5998

RM5998

Sack of Meat
Sep 3, 2018
2,202
I'm... not holding up, I'd say. Watching Bojack Horseman while pondering your family issues is... not a good idea.

I wonder what I look like to people. I wonder whether I should go into acting because it seems like the happy act is working way too well. I guess the reason it's not been caught is because no one knows any other state of me except the idiotic one I'm in right now.
 
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Caustic Cardinals

Caustic Cardinals

Enlightened
Sep 1, 2018
1,339
Aaaaand your profile picture is rainbow dash with a dose of swag.

There's a punchline there somewhere, I'm sure.
ʎɐpʎɹǝʌǝ pǝǝʍ ǝʞoɯS
 
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Deleted_9cKnXB34QG

Mage
Jun 26, 2018
501
Took some anti anxiety meds with a couple of beers and started binge-watching Netflix.
I'm a sad piece of crap.
 
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Caustic Cardinals

Caustic Cardinals

Enlightened
Sep 1, 2018
1,339
I am
freakout
meltdown, crazy town
check check ,Atinan
gonna be just fine man

ⓕⓐⓓⓔ ⓕⓐⓓⓔ ⓕⓐⓓⓔ ⓕⓐⓓⓔ ⓒⓗⓘⓛⓛ
 
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Final Escape

I’ve been here too long
Jul 8, 2018
4,348
I feel like I can't get going but I have to.
 
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Brokenanddeadinside

Brokenanddeadinside

Arcanist
Aug 8, 2018
403
I am doing alright I actually have something to look forward too next month.
 
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throwaway123

throwaway123

Hell0
Aug 5, 2018
1,446
I'm so tired.
 
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RM5998

RM5998

Sack of Meat
Sep 3, 2018
2,202
Took some anti anxiety meds with a couple of beers and started binge-watching Netflix.
I'm a sad piece of crap.

Don't binge S05 of Bojack while being sad. I learnt that lesson the hard way by breaking down after free churro.
 
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Deleted_9cKnXB34QG

Mage
Jun 26, 2018
501
Don't binge S05 of Bojack while being sad. I learnt that lesson the hard way by breaking down after free churro.
Too late...
 
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Lizzie S.

Lizzie S.

Experienced
Sep 2, 2018
258
My body is completely fucked from a heroin overdose, so every day is hell. Starting to throw up less and get less frequent migraines so I think I might be improving? Still feel like im dying but whatever. Which is good because I need to be strong enough to be able to kill myself for real this time
 
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Caustic Cardinals

Caustic Cardinals

Enlightened
Sep 1, 2018
1,339
phantasmagorically
 
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Cherry Crumpet

Hiraeth
May 7, 2018
273
Xanax helps. Sometimes. Tolerance is a bitch. I'm pretty sad right now.
 
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voool

voool

Experienced
Sep 18, 2018
261
Terribly
 
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Brokenanddeadinside

Brokenanddeadinside

Arcanist
Aug 8, 2018
403
Shitty but oh well next month I'm gonna completely self destruct when i go back to Florida.
 
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samhelloall9

Experienced
Jul 16, 2018
297
I'm feeling sadder knowing I'm being pushed by folks (I'm 24) into taking a Christmas casual job that starts in October if I don't get this full time job also starting October. The point I hate is, it'd disrupt my "free time" to schedule in a CTB. You feel? Nobody probably gets it but I do, besides I do work already in retail, what more do they want. Sigh,
 
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lostinthedream

lostinthedream

Warlock
Sep 2, 2018
754
Ebbing and flowing, better and worse, up and down .. I feel like a rollercoaster these days
 
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Halvah

Member
Sep 20, 2018
18
Ebbing and flowing, better and worse, up and down .. I feel like a rollercoaster these days
Thats about the way I feel about it only even the better isn't good.

















t
 
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lostinthedream

lostinthedream

Warlock
Sep 2, 2018
754
Thats about the way I feel about it only even the better isn't good.

Same here.. sighs softly the soulcrushing continues. I awaken and ask why? thats my eternal question.. and yet it continues..
 
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PatKat

PatKat

Meh
Aug 9, 2018
1,027
I have to pack for a trip I take Monday to see my mother and sisters... I dont want to do it though.
 
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dhk96

dhk96

Member
May 8, 2018
94
Rather than 'how,' it's more like 'why?' Even gravity wants me down.
 
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