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Konnsz

Konnsz

At the very end, you can only trust yourself.
Jan 2, 2023
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I know I objectively have a shitty life, depression has been taking the worse out of me.

But whenever I think about killing myself i still see it as something rlly far away, not a thing i would do next month, but later on without a clear defined time.


I hate being alive, I hate this loneliness, i truly hate it.
 
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dontwakemeup

dontwakemeup

Experienced
Nov 11, 2024
297
If you have to convince yourself then do not do it!

It's perfectly normal to be burdened by society, depressed and feeling overwhelmed sometimes.

I suggest you try to reach out to a professional to help you organize your thoughts and try to sort out everything that's troubling you.

Pethaps talk therapy maybe beneficial for you. Maybe starting medication can help. There are so many resources available. I suggest you try every option available and if you still feel like this we can discuss it. Suicide should never be one's 1st and only option.

If you'd like, do you want to start talking about what's bothering you right now? What's the most important issue at this moment? Only if you're comfortable with sharing.
 
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Neuromancer

Neuromancer

Dystopian
Jun 30, 2023
28
Is that your pfp from astrophysics? Pretty cool.
 
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foreverlanguish

foreverlanguish

┊ ┊ ┊ ┊ sleepy in a heaven's sprawl
Dec 7, 2024
99
Honestly I think it's normal to feel this way. It doesn't necessarily mean you don't want to do it though. Sometimes SI will try to get you to reconsider and see some hope for the future, but you have to ask yourself these: do I really see a future for myself? Do I really want to be around for the next so and so months? If you can say "no" to those two questions, there's your answer.
 
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Konnsz

Konnsz

At the very end, you can only trust yourself.
Jan 2, 2023
82
If you have to convince yourself then do not do it!

It's perfectly normal to be burdened by society, depressed and feeling overwhelmed sometimes.

I suggest you try to reach out to a professional to help you organize your thoughts and try to sort out everything that's troubling you.
You are being too hopeful despite being here. I appreciate that, truly, but it's not that I'm looking for. Sorry.
 
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Unhumanly.

Unhumanly.

Recovery are not the winner.
Feb 24, 2023
256
When something I find joy in remind me how alive I was in the moment I am with it, I remember it is only fleeting in most of my life , it only happened like once or twice in a while and how my condition make me unable to make it my entire lifestyle. when someone convince me there's a lot to live for, I remember we don't live in the same reality so the opportunity that come for them might not be the same thing I also can experience to live my life the 'fullest', not that I'd let anyone except myself to define am I lacking something in life and what I need. When it comes to responsibility like work/job I remember I'm replaceable, my job doesn't care about me. When it comes to what everyone think after I died, it's none of my business, I'm no longer in the same world to care. I avoid social media, because its competitive atmosphere and create this feeling of losing something so I have to live more to experience it when the truth is the thing they show me is only the same fleeting distraction I have experienced every other past day I can't make into my entire lifestyle. Instead I go outside to be reminded of the reality I live in, the cruel apathetic environment surrounding me.
 
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LittleBlackCat

LittleBlackCat

Experienced
Feb 6, 2020
292
I know I objectively have a shitty life, depression has been taking the worse out of me.

But whenever I think about killing myself i still see it as something rlly far away, not a thing i would do next month, but later on without a clear defined time.


I hate being alive, I hate this loneliness, i truly hate it.
I completely get you. I may have to set a date and try to stick to it. I've been in limbo for a long time now.
 
HopingOnaMiracle

HopingOnaMiracle

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Mar 8, 2024
305
I often think about it and have researched many methods. But it still seems like a far away solution. I don't want to hurt the loved ones that are helping me now.

I agree with the poster above saying don't do it if you contemplate.