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darkcirclesunder
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- Sep 8, 2022
- 42
I have absolutely 0 self love, i mean absolutely zero. I received almost no emotional affection or warmth growing up, i mean my mom might of gave me hugs when i went to school but that was it. I also had to witness domestic violence at age 3 or 4. Ive never developed strong emotional relationships with anyone. No one ever cared about me on a deep level or loved me. Dad would only tell me he loved me when he was drunk but then if i got mad he would yell and verbally abuse me. I dont really think there can be anything to overcome this shit, im not cut out for any relationship and i would probably only attract bpd women who would cheat on me or worse. I also deal with self loathing and horrendous guilt over some awful things i did after a breakup at age 19. I am really just a dark, unloved rag who was just not enough for the society and family i was in. Every one had their own problems and hopes and status to protect and i was forgotten about, drug through a dirty, lonely sad life of neglect, bullying, and other bullshit.