Have any of you successfully "unlearned" the habit of jumping straight to the thought of suicide when the slightest thing goes wrong? I've spent about 15 years beating myself up in my head and it feels like who I am at this point. I want to change. This negative thinking pattern get me into trouble with people I care about. Because I'm so hard on myself I tend to also judge others as well. I wonder how other people deal with the pessimistic narrator in their head.
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27clubBRIAN
im a mk ultra victim
- Jul 27, 2022
- 116
Mmmm good question it used to lurk now it's basically anything that makes me suffer even on a small level , my thoughts just go to CTB
abyss
Member
- Jul 13, 2022
- 96
Same, I haven't learned how to stop immediately start thinking about extreme measures when something goes wrong.
Blackhole999
Nohope
- Jul 1, 2022
- 67
Estoy profundamente enojado con migo mismo con las decisiones de mi vida pero hablando con amigos, me dieron la pauta de que en el momento de haber tomado cualquier decision en el pasado fue lo que en el momento me salio lo mejor que pude hacer o simplemente en el momento parecio una buena idea asi q de esa manera estoy aprendiendo a desenojarme con migo mismo y aceptar que las decisiones no las puedo juzgar con los ojos de ahora solo aprender de ellas y seguir adelante
very, i really really hate myself and that's ingrained at this point. i don't want to get better, and yes i can kind of recognise that my brain is messed up but again, i don't care about getting better because i don't want myself to get better
