justameatsuit
hopeless
- Apr 17, 2023
- 5
I just don't know when. I know ctb is the only option for me, that life will be constant pain and punishment. Even having to make this choice is punishment..
I have a lot of pets and disabled family members and I'm the only one working outside the home
How do I leave them all in such a terrible way? I know they'll all hurt and be sad.. I feel like they'll get over it but idk. It's just a lot of weight trying to figure out how to not hurt their feelings
I tell my family all the time I'm dissatisfied, unhappy, unfulfilled, that they aren't enough because one day they'll die anyway and Ill be left with no one, maybe my brother who's also disabled and doesn't even like me anyway..
There's just no place for me in this world, not really. I mean, animals LOVE me .. but they're the only ones .. it feels horrible knowing someone of my own species could never love me and that romantic love is completely off the table for me .. I just don't know how to go. Of course I just feel like such a coward. I want to get it over with and go but how can I when everyone is relying on me? Just need me here to do meaningless tasks forever... God I hate it . Please help. What can I do?
I have a lot of pets and disabled family members and I'm the only one working outside the home
How do I leave them all in such a terrible way? I know they'll all hurt and be sad.. I feel like they'll get over it but idk. It's just a lot of weight trying to figure out how to not hurt their feelings
I tell my family all the time I'm dissatisfied, unhappy, unfulfilled, that they aren't enough because one day they'll die anyway and Ill be left with no one, maybe my brother who's also disabled and doesn't even like me anyway..
There's just no place for me in this world, not really. I mean, animals LOVE me .. but they're the only ones .. it feels horrible knowing someone of my own species could never love me and that romantic love is completely off the table for me .. I just don't know how to go. Of course I just feel like such a coward. I want to get it over with and go but how can I when everyone is relying on me? Just need me here to do meaningless tasks forever... God I hate it . Please help. What can I do?
