Venting How do I even clean my room?

[undecidedfool]

My room is a mess. It's my own little depression den. I just want it clean before I even make final plans. (I have a general plan, just not finalized.)
How does one even get the motivation to clean? My brain won't let me ctb until my room is neat, because I don't like the idea of someone else having to clean it and go through my shit. Yet I have no motivation to get up to clean it. I don't know if it's part of me that wants me to stay, or if it's genuine depression.
Honestly I just want thoughts or advice. I feel so lost and helpless right now. The mess is adding to the overwhelmed feeling and I feel like I can't even think straight with it.
Sorry if this is stupid. I'm just not having the best of times right now.

 

[vanillamilkshakes]

It's not stupid, don't worry. Whenever my room gets too bad, I always start with a corner and then go from there. Remember you don't have to do it all in one day, take breaks and don't stress yourself out over it

 

[folly_]

not stupid at all. if your whole room is a mess and its overwhelming, focus on one area. instead of thinking "ill get this whole room cleaned up at some point," try "this afternoon i will clean up half of my bed." messy areas can be super stressful and splitting tasks into smaller specific parts makes it easier to achieve; it helps you feel accomplished even after youve done a small portion. cause hey, a small portion is way better than none, right?

 

[DOHARDTHINGS24]

My depression den is also out of control so you may not want advice from me. Oops.
But things I've found helpful - put everything into categories, even if it makes everything a million times worse - all the socks together, all the photos, books, it doesn't matter what the categories are. But try to find a category for most things. And have a "too hard" pile, so that you don't get stuck on something time wasting, but don't be lazy & put EVERYTHING in that pile.
If you can, if there are things you know you need to get rid of, take the whole category out of the room, even just on to the hall floor. Sort through it & only take stuff back into the room that you actively choose to, that you've thought about & made decisions about. And when you bring it back, find a home for it. And while it's out of the room, clean the space where it's going back.
You'll get a dopamine hit for each success & that'll help move you forward. It's about acknowledging it'll get worse before it gets better & celebrating small wins & doing things with deliberate purpose - it makes me feel more in control. Most of it is about finding a home for things & then putting them in their homes over & over again. Doing a deep clean on what needs it, a surface clean on what doesn't & the wisdom to know the difference (sorry for appropriating but it's appropriate ).
This works for me WHEN I DO IT but fuck me, my den is a monster right now. Not dirty. Just a disorganised, cluttered ADHD chaos - a physical manifestation of what's inside my brain, perhaps? I dunno. Best of luck to you (& to me too, I really gotta get it sorted, instead of writing to other people about how to get it sorted - so don't procrastinate like me…)

 

[/dev/null]

one thing that helps me is giving myself an easy out. "i'll just clean for 5 minutes and then if i'm miserable i'll stop." usually i find that once i get started it's easy to keep going and i can get a lot done. but knowing that if i really hate it i don't need to push myself helps me to avoid putting it off.

 

[lifelite]

god damn, I feel like I'd need some meth at least to get anything cleaned. But anyway I try to not have "zero days". Instead everyday I try to get something done. No matter how little cleaning, but some cleaning every day. And I go from there. Eventually I should be able to vacuum clean and then mop. Currently afraid to even start the vacuum cleaner. Gonna just buy new one

 

[pthnrdnojvsc]

i hate having to clean everything every day.

i hate having to clean everything , having to fix so many things, problems, stress, work ,chores , diseases , getting old..... i hate everything about existence and living . why do i have do all this work and crap? I don't want to do anything. all i want is for me to die to get out of this hell. for what reason do i have to do all this and to even live another minute? i don't see any . just fear of failure keeps me here for now but i will find a way to non-existence soon

 

[cotton]

My room is a mess. It's my own little depression den. I just want it clean before I even make final plans. (I have a general plan, just not finalized.)
How does one even get the motivation to clean? My brain won't let me ctb until my room is neat, because I don't like the idea of someone else having to clean it and go through my shit. Yet I have no motivation to get up to clean it. I don't know if it's part of me that wants me to stay, or if it's genuine depression.
Honestly I just want thoughts or advice. I feel so lost and helpless right now. The mess is adding to the overwhelmed feeling and I feel like I can't even think straight with it.
Sorry if this is stupid. I'm just not having the best of times right now.

Maybe see if someone can help you clean. You don't have to mention anything other than you feel a bit overwhelmed by it. Maybe put things that you don't want other to find a way somewhere safe first though.