How do I silence the voices of doubt inside my head?

[TheLastGreySky]

I don't mean like "actual" voices, but like there's so many intrusive thoughts that it feels like I'm being poisoned.

I am currently being stalked by my psychotic ex on social media to the point where I am considering moving away and changing my name completely. And yet, I worry that some actual damage to my psyche was done because for the past year I can't seem to build my confidence back up and shut the voices in my head that tell me that no one likes me and that I'm going to die alone and how I'm a monster. And trying to remind myself that none of these things are true makes me feel even more crazy cuz I feel like I'm arguing with my own mind.

 

[Dot]

1 problm wth intrusve thghts = tht th/ mre u fght bck agnst thm thn th/ strongr thy bcme

= lke a deepr prt of u = hurtng & whn tht prt of u = tryn2 cmmunc8 tht pain u wll psh thse msgs bck dwn

Whn slf issu ws 'jst' OCD/Intrusve thghts th/ bst thng tht helpd ws b-ing compassn8 2 thse thghts as tho thy r comng frm a prt of u tht u care abt rathr thn a prt of u t/ h8 or b afrd of

S/ accpt th/ feelngs & accpt th/ pain - rspond wth smethng lke 'yh slf knw tht am hurtng'

Acceptng feelngs ds nt mean tht u r acceptng thse thghts as truth - = jst mns tht u r metphoriclly huggng th/ prt of u whch = hurtng

Thre r sme rsourcs in recvry threds fr smethng calld ACT whch mght gve sme info on hw 2 wrk wth thse thghts

Also slf fnd tht bdy scans wre gd fr gttng in contct wth th/ feelngs & emotns in bdy whch dstrssng thghts r oftn tryn2 blck accss 2 bcse thy cn b scary

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ACT rsourcs r in abve thred

& bdy scn tht usd 2 b helpfl fr slf = b-low

 

[rainwillneverstop]

1 problm wth intrusve thghts = tht th/ mre u fght bck agnst thm thn th/ strongr thy bcme

= lke a deepr prt of u = hurtng & whn tht prt of u = tryn2 cmmunc8 tht pain u wll psh thse msgs bck dwn

Whn slf issu ws 'jst' OCD/Intrusve thghts th/ bst thng tht helpd ws b-ing compassn8 2 thse thghts as tho thy r comng frm a prt of u tht u care abt rathr thn a prt of u t/ h8 or b afrd of

S/ accpt th/ feelngs & accpt th/ pain - rspond wth smethng lke 'yh slf knw tht am hurtng'

Acceptng feelngs ds nt mean tht u r acceptng thse thghts as truth - = jst mns tht u r metphoriclly huggng th/ prt of u whch = hurtng

Thre r sme rsourcs in recvry threds fr smethng calld ACT whch mght gve sme info on hw 2 wrk wth thse thghts

Also slf fnd tht bdy scans wre gd fr gttng in contct wth th/ feelngs & emotns in bdy whch dstrssng thghts r oftn tryn2 blck accss 2 bcse thy cn b scary

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@Dot and I are working to bring you some worksheets and similar resources to support working on/with your mental health. Please note that this information does not replace professional help, so use this at your discretion. Seeking a licensed mental health specialist is recommended, however this...

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ACT rsourcs r in abve thred

& bdy scn tht usd 2 b helpfl fr slf = b-low

Translated if difficult to read;
One problem with intrusive thoughts is that the more you fight back against them, then the stronger they become.
It's like a deeper part of you is hurting and when that part of you is trying to communicate that pain, you will push these messages back down.
When my own issue was "just" OCD/Instrusive thoughts the best thing that helped, was being compassionate to these thoughts as tho they are coming from a part of you that you care about. Rather than a part of you to hate, or be afraid of.
So accept the feelings and accept the pain - respond with something like "Yeah I know that I am hurting."
Accepting feelings does not mean that you are accepting these thoughts as truth - it just means that you are metaphorically hugging that part of you which is hurting.
There are some sources in the recovery threads, for something called ACT which might give some info on how to work with these thoughts.

Also I find that body scans were good for getting in contact with the feelings and emotions in body; which distressing thoughts are often trying to block access to, because they can be scary.

ACT resources are in above thread.
And body scan that used to be helpful to me, is below.

 

[TheLastGreySky]

1 problm wth intrusve thghts = tht th/ mre u fght bck agnst thm thn th/ strongr thy bcme

= lke a deepr prt of u = hurtng & whn tht prt of u = tryn2 cmmunc8 tht pain u wll psh thse msgs bck dwn

Whn slf issu ws 'jst' OCD/Intrusve thghts th/ bst thng tht helpd ws b-ing compassn8 2 thse thghts as tho thy r comng frm a prt of u tht u care abt rathr thn a prt of u t/ h8 or b afrd of

S/ accpt th/ feelngs & accpt th/ pain - rspond wth smethng lke 'yh slf knw tht am hurtng'

Acceptng feelngs ds nt mean tht u r acceptng thse thghts as truth - = jst mns tht u r metphoriclly huggng th/ prt of u whch = hurtng

Thre r sme rsourcs in recvry threds fr smethng calld ACT whch mght gve sme info on hw 2 wrk wth thse thghts

Also slf fnd tht bdy scans wre gd fr gttng in contct wth th/ feelngs & emotns in bdy whch dstrssng thghts r oftn tryn2 blck accss 2 bcse thy cn b scary

Mental health worksheets, booklets & digital resources megathread

@Dot and I are working to bring you some worksheets and similar resources to support working on/with your mental health. Please note that this information does not replace professional help, so use this at your discretion. Seeking a licensed mental health specialist is recommended, however this...

sanctioned-suicide.net

ACT rsourcs r in abve thred

& bdy scn tht usd 2 b helpfl fr slf = b-low

I really appreciate the message and if I'm taking away from it what I think I am you're saying to make peace with your subconscious I.e your shadow, so instead of fighting the inner voices I should treat them as if I'm nurturing them as a form of self-soothing.

Translated if difficult to read;
One problem with intrusive thoughts is that the more you fight back against them, then the stronger they become.
It's like a deeper part of you is hurting and when that part of you is trying to communicate that pain, you will push these messages back down.
When my own issue was "just" OCD/Instrusive thoughts the best thing that helped, was being compassionate to these thoughts as tho they are coming from a part of you that you care about. Rather than a part of you to hate, or be afraid of.
So accept the feelings and accept the pain - respond with something like "Yeah I know that I am hurting."
Accepting feelings does not mean that you are accepting these thoughts as truth - it just means that you are metaphorically hugging that part of you which is hurting.
There are some sources in the recovery threads, for something called ACT which might give some info on how to work with these thoughts.

Also I find that body scans were good for getting in contact with the feelings and emotions in body; which distressing thoughts are often trying to block access to, because they can be scary.

ACT resources are in above thread.
And body scan that used to be helpful to me, is below.

I really appreciate the translation because it definitely helps to make sure I understood what was said.

 

[Dot]

I really appreciate the message and if I'm taking away from it what I think I am you're saying to make peace with your subconscious I.e your shadow, so instead of fighting the inner voices I should treat them as if I'm nurturing them as a form of self-soothing.

Xactly

& smetmes doin tht cn hlp procss th/ emotns whch r goin arnd in circls insde u

 

[LivingDeadTGirl]

I currently down out the voices with video games. I also just snapped my keyboard in half in a calm fit of rage. I gotta say, slowly breaking that thing over my knee felt really good though and made me happy.

So you can just drown out the voices by playing video games until the point of exhaustion so you just fall asleep, wake up, go to work, come home and repeat, just know there's a risk of breaking things.

 

[TheLastGreySky]

I currently down out the voices with video games. I also just snapped my keyboard in half in a calm fit of rage. I gotta say, slowly breaking that thing over my knee felt really good though and made me happy.

So you can just drown out the voices by playing video games until the point of exhaustion so you just fall asleep, wake up, go to work, come home and repeat, just know there's a risk of breaking things.

I can't, I have severe PTSD due to combat situations and as unhealthy is it might sound,
Even the smallest amount of anger makes me very destructive so I completely avoid the emotion entirely. The sheer adrenaline alone makes it where I can't even open the door without risking pulling the door handle off.

Plus, I play on console and can't afford 80$ PS5 controllers every time we get frustrated
But I would be lying to you if I didn't say I hadn't broken at least three or four in the past couple years.

I just don't like the endless routine. I feel like everything is meaningless and maybe it is but I shouldn't have to feel bad about it if it is.

 

[inconstantprayer]

As a warrior you would understand you combat the voice of doubt with the voice of good courage. There is no darkness that has ever been able to overtake even the smallest of light.

 

[LivingDeadTGirl]

Tbh, Madden and MTG make me rage far more than any fps combat game ever did

 

[TheLastGreySky]

As a warrior you would understand you combat the voice of doubt with the voice of good courage. There is no darkness that has ever been able to overtake even the smallest of light.

You can glorify anything you want, but at the end of the day a light that never goes out is still a light that will burn down the house if you don't get it put in check. That's why I'm actually asking for advice haha.

Tbh, Madden and MTG make me rage far more than any fps combat game ever did

Honestly the game that triggers me the most is Minecraft. Last time I played was with my ex wife and we have played it for 12 hours straight going on all these crazy adventures and then bam I died and lost all my equipment. You know I rage quit.

 

[LivingDeadTGirl]

As a warrior you would understand you combat the voice of doubt with the voice of good courage. There is no darkness that has ever been able to overtake even the smallest of light.

Rain puts out the camp fire, storm knocks out the power, candle burns out, oil/fuel runs out, life smothers my soul... we live between the void and return to the darkness.

 

[TheLastGreySky]

Rain puts out the camp fire, storm knocks out the power, candle burns out, oil/fuel runs out, life smothers my soul... we live between the void and return to the darkness.

Yeah, sometimes I think people who are optimistic are disassociative (no disrespect to them.) like the mentality that it can't rain everyday seems willfully ignorant... because it's been raining in my head for years.