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Hahem

Knows too much
Feb 4, 2023
91
I really can't understand, I am barely getting by rotting in bed all day in the loneliness, without energy or motivation to do anything.
I look at my future and I see no way out in sight. How am I gonna work? Find love? Seek my share of sucess in life? I can't even do basic chores.
I really don't know how normal people can do so much and have so much vitality in them. How they can have hope for the future and carry on.
I really don't know their secret. Maybe they're just built different. Maybe I'm the problem really.
Thoughts?
 
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Forever Sleep

Earned it we have...
May 4, 2022
10,290
I'm not sure that everyone who is working is doing it effortlessly and with enthusiasm. I work but it's because the alternative of being given enormous guilt trips by my family would be worse.

Plus- not all families can afford to support their 'children' forever. For some people, it's the choice of destitution and homelessness or working- if they don't qualify for benefits. So, it's sometimes simply choosing the lesser of the evils. Most of the people I know who work are exhausted and fed up to varying degrees. I know very few with vitality. Most of us have had it sucked out of us. Maybe I'm only friends with pessimists though!
 
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divinemistress36

divinemistress36

Illuminated
Jan 1, 2024
3,477
I'm amazed at peoples resilence. Working 50 hours a week, then doing chores, taking care of a family, and having hobbies. Ive been bed rotting for years , even just taking a shower is exhausting
 
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L'absent

L'absent

À ma manière 🪦
Aug 18, 2024
1,044
They are moved by hope. The hope that animates peoples. We are disenchanted people now, we cannot understand such madness. Resign yourself, you don't lose anything.🥱
 
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ijustwishtodie

ijustwishtodie

death will be my ultimate bliss
Oct 29, 2023
5,568
I don't understand it either. I always thought that I wasn't able to deal with the demands of life due to autism fucking up my neurotype to make me incompatible with working but it seems like quite a few people who are neurotypical also seem to struggle to work so I don't know anymore. All I know is that I'm not somebody who is able to deal with life nor do I have a desire to deal with life. To me, death is far superior than life
 
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TheHolySword

TheHolySword

empty heart
Nov 22, 2024
632
I work because I have to, for various reasons. I pay for all my pets to stay alive, I help contribute financially while I live with my parents, I wouldn't have health benefits otherwise, it gives me life insurance which lets me give my younger brother a safety net should anything happen to me, the list goes on. The truth is that if I were not working, I would have ctb already. This life is slowly killing me too, but I may as well earn money to leave behind for my loved ones while I'm here
 
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dust-in-the-wind

dust-in-the-wind

Animal Lover
Aug 24, 2024
355
It has to do with your brain chemistry. I have been in a major depressive episode for 2 years now and can't function. But I have had years where I could function as a normal person and do all the things that needed to be done. I had the drive and motivation but now I want to die.
Have you tried any meds? They do help some people.
 
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suicidaltransgirl

suicidaltransgirl

Member
Aug 26, 2024
28
the only reason I manage to work right now is because it's from home, and zero physical effort required. I don't think I could hold down a "normal" job.
 
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butimbleeding

butimbleeding

Member
Dec 3, 2023
59
I don't really get it either. I've tried to work, I've actually had many different jobs, all of them short lived. When I was younger, I used to always find a reason to quit based on my mental illness. But in my worst moments as I got older I was so dysfunctional that I was fired before even having the chance to quit. The only jobs that I ever seemed to enjoy were only temporary contracts…. Other people make it seem so easy to find permanent employment while it's always just gone to shit for me.

Here if you wanna talk to someone. Hope you're OK.
 
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LostLily

LostLily

Why do I exist?
Nov 18, 2024
363
Been taking part days at work instead of full days just to rest my mind.
 
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danfritz

danfritz

Member
Nov 24, 2024
49
I've worked for over 40 years, just heads down and grind through it every day

Now I'm 60 approaching retirement. Questioning everything I did for 40 years and find myself in a suicide forum…
 
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TragedyBornCrimson

TragedyBornCrimson

I accept my eternal punishment
Oct 19, 2023
245
Working is hell, as we are forced to work and abide by the rules of someone else. Our work provides for our slave drivers, and we have no choice but to accept it. Imagine a world where everyone could truly pursue whatever they wanted without worrying about food shelter or income. I work retail and it sucks, at least it's better than fast food.
 
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kunikuzushi

kunikuzushi

sause
Jan 24, 2023
305
I think it's the pressure by friends and family and society because working 40+ hours is just something you're "supposed to do." Maybe the pressure is great enough that it's better to work and keep their life together instead of being shamed. I don't know. I gave in to this pressure many years ago but it absolutely destroyed me because I'm incapable of functioning like a "normal" person. So now I just accept that I'm a loser who can't handle working on top of having to take care of myself and daily tasks.
 
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dontwakemeup

dontwakemeup

Arcanist
Nov 11, 2024
455
I often wonder how people survive without working? I'd love to stay in bed disconnected from society and drown in my sorrows but I can't.
I work because I have nobody to help me! I have walked away from everyone and trust me for valid and justifiable reasons. I'd rather live in truth than to have people who hurt me in my life, just to have people in my life.
My job is only 3 days a week, and I work with people who need me. I go above and beyond for them because it's not their fault they are in their situation. And I get several compliments from them, families, and rary my boss. It doesn't matter, I dedicate my life to them, it brings me joy.

This is what I do to survive it's very simple. The days I'm off, I take medication to make me sleep all day, I hate this world and waiting to die. I usually stay in bed, watch documentaries, YouTube, etc. I barely shower and eat. The days I work, I make myself sleep until I have to get up and I become who I need to be and repeat.

I've been homeless before and I'd rather not live homeless again. I have dysthmia which I agree, but it's probably because I don't have the option to give up.

You would never see me and never guess this is my life but I feel safe to be honest here. I do love my job and helping others. I had a 5150 and it taught me to shut up! I'm distant with friends and learned to never set-up patterns like I don't talk to them everyday, I never say if I'm having a bad day, I never complain, and they believe it!

So this is how I personally do it, hope that helps answer your question.
 
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skyflame

skyflame

Member
Oct 1, 2024
63
I don't understand either. My mental state is always like "ahhh I'm a living thing WTF is going on!?". I think I feel this way because I'm autistic.

I'm still waiting for these so-called superpowers I'm supposed to have btw.
 
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OnMyLast Legs

OnMyLast Legs

Too many regrets
Oct 29, 2024
204
My mental state is always like "ahhh I'm a living thing WTF is going on!?". I think I feel this way because I'm autistic.
"[C]onsider how great and immediate is the problem of existence, this ambiguous, tormented, fleeting, dream-like existence - so great and so immediate that as soon as you are aware of it, it overshadows and obscures all other problems and aims..."
- Schopenhauer
 
Electra

Electra

In sleep's embrace, forever estranged
Jul 1, 2024
239
Maybe they photosynthesize energy from the sun?
 

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