How do people do easily ctb?

[ZoloftSüchtig]

I want to ctb so badly. I just want my suffering to finally end but suicide is so so difficult. How do people so easily hang themselves? I look it up and there's so much information and it's so difficult. Maybe I'm just stupid and I suffer from wanting to do everything perfectly and these other people just do it randomly and it works but idk what to do. I got a rope and I got an anchor point but the the knots are the biggest issue for me. Also my rope is super long, how do I know how long the rope is supposed to be, can I just cut my rope to make it that length? So many questions and I've read through multiple mega threads and other threads etc. and still idk. That's why I'd prefer to shoot myself but I got no gun. I'd also jump from a bridge but the bridge is so far away and I'm also scared I'll be stopped by security or something. I just want to hang myself TODAY, but I'm so miserable and have no energy and Idk how, but people do it all the time even without access to the internet to research it, so how do they do it but I can't manage. Just proofs again what a piece of garbage I am, can't even manage to do this I guess. I just need this suffering to stop, pls help. Please.

 

[L'absent]

Every day people hang themselves and in prisons they do it with limited means. Many times they even use shoe cleaners or commit suicide with sheets. Or by sucking the gas from a heater (the one they supply to prisoners). These days the news in Italy are covering a 15-year-old girl who committed suicide by hanging herself in a park in the center of the town. With all the risks that doing so among so many people entails. Maybe we think about it too much.
I believe that we will fail even with the gun, perhaps because we forgot to load it or we have a sudden strong pain in the tendons of the hand. A 16 year old boy (with no experience and without ever having used a gun) stole his father's gun and shot himself, dying instantly. It happened last week.

Larimar Annaloro morta impiccata a 15 anni, spunta il video della lite con una campagna di classe: l'accusava di un flirt con il suo ex

La lite tra la 15enne di Piazza Armerina (En), Larimar Annaloro, trovata impiccata a un albero una settimana fa e una compagna di scuola che l'accusava di avere avuto un flirt con il suo ex...

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A 15 anni si toglie la vita con la pistola del padre: voleva porre fine alle angherie dei bulli

Ha messo fine alla sua vita con un colpo di pistola dentro un casolare di campagna vicino a Senigallia, in provincia di Ancona. Si era confidato con i genitori, che avevano deciso di denunciare alla preside le molestie

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[ijustwishtodie]

I wonder the same too but, if I may add, I don't think that you're a piece of garbage for being unable to kill yourself. Suicide is incredibly difficult and our inability to kill ourselves isn't our fault (I say "our" because I'm in the same situation and other people here are too). Pro lifers act like suicide is easy and that it's easy to kill yourself but, honestly, that couldn't be further from the truth. It's super difficult to die which is why the ratio for the failed attempts vs the successful attempts is super, super high. Not to mention that there's an element of luck to it as well since there could be those who impulsively try to kill themselves and survive whilst there could be those who planned everything out but still failed to die. Dying is incredibly difficult and I don't blame you or think you're garbage because of that.

I'm sorry for the suffering that you're going through and I wish I could help but there's unfortunately nothing that I can do. I wish that society legalised euthanasia so that we don't have to suffer like this but, no, people are pro suffering and would rather have us suffer like this. I hope you find peace soon, take care

 

[ZoloftSüchtig]

Every day people hang themselves and in prisons they do it with limited means. Many times they even use shoe cleaners or commit suicide with sheets. Or by sucking the gas from a heater (the one they supply to prisoners). These days the news in Italy are covering a 15-year-old girl who committed suicide by hanging herself in a park in the center of the town. With all the risks that doing so among so many people entails. Maybe we think about it too much.

Yeah we probably do think about it too much. Idk. I just want it to be perfect.

I wonder the same too but, if I may add, I don't think that you're a piece of garbage for being unable to kill yourself. Suicide is incredibly difficult and our inability to kill ourselves isn't our fault (I say "our" because I'm in the same situation and other people here are too). Pro lifers act like suicide is easy and that it's easy to kill yourself but, honestly, that couldn't be further from the truth. It's super difficult to die which is why the ratio for the failed attempts vs the successful attempts is super, super high. Not to mention that there's an element of luck to it as well since there could be those who impulsively try to kill themselves and survive whilst there could be those who planned everything out but still failed to die. Dying is incredibly difficult and I don't blame you or think you're garbage because of that.

I'm sorry for the suffering that you're going through and I wish I could help but there's unfortunately nothing that I can do. I wish that society legalised euthanasia so that we don't have to suffer like this but, no, people are pro suffering and would rather have us suffer like this. I hope you find peace soon, take care

Hey thank you. I tend to always be super harsh on myself while not being this harsh with anyone else. Back when I wasn't suicidal I also used to think suicide is easy but now I know first hand it isn't. It's so unbelievably cruel. Horrible things were allowed to happen to me so that I suffer now but now they don't want me to be able to end this suffering? I wish you the best and am sorry you too have the same problem

 

[Josef2000]

I'm sorry to hear that you're suffering.
In most cases, people who hang themselves haven't done much research beforehand, it's just the typical noose that people regard.

I think that the souls suffering here look into it a bit too much but a lot of people want to pass on as peacefully as possible with minimal risk which is why there are threads, resources and methods regarding hanging.

I hope that you stick around and I hope you realise that you are not a piece of garbage, you're a person experiencing pain.

 

[Praestat_Mori]

CTB is never easy. We can endure so much more suffering and pain than we might think. Beating SI is damn difficult and I would say that people who can do it are in total desperation and hopelessness. When the pain of life becomes greater than the pain of death then it's easier to overcome SI.

I'm sorry you're in so much pain.

I got a rope and I got an anchor point but the the knots are the biggest issue for me.

There's a thread about knots.

Knots megathread - a guide

hii! I haven't seen this on the website so I decided to make a compilation of all useful knots I found off of this website (animatedknots.com). I only chose knots that would be useful for hanging, I didn't consider other uses (doesn't mean it can't be used for other things). I used a shoelace...

sanctioned-suicide.net

 

[FuneralCry]

I understand as I just wish to be gone as well, I just wish to cease existing in peace and never suffer ever again, it always feels so cruel and horrible to me how I cannot just have the option to painlessly free myself from this existence, there's so much cruelty in how it's so difficult to die. But anyway I wish you the best, I hope you find the freedom from the suffering you search for.

 

[Adûnâi]

Back when I wasn't suicidal I also used to think suicide is easy but now I know first hand it isn't. It's so unbelievably cruel. Horrible things were allowed to happen to me so that I suffer now but now they don't want me to be able to end this suffering?

Indeed, it is rather disgusting. I've just had a debate with 3 folks on Discord who outright told me suicide is easy, and banned me, and they don't even seem like normies? Normies overall are so clueless and ugly, like elephantsin the kitchen. They have no idea, they just live and shit and sleep, and it's fine for them.

 

[ZoloftSüchtig]

Indeed, it is rather disgusting. I've just had a debate with 3 folks on Discord who outright told me suicide is easy, and banned me, and they don't even seem like normies? Normies overall are so clueless and ugly, like elephantsin the kitchen. They have no idea, they just live and shit and sleep, and it's fine for them.

Yeah I'm so jealous of people that don't think about suicide all the time. I'm happy for them but I wonder why some people get to be happy while others suffer. It's unfair. I feel so connected to other people in the same position as me (wanting to end their suffering). It's such a horrible place to be in. I wish we could all be happy or if that's not possible I wish we could at least all have an easy, quick and painless death.

CTB is never easy. We can endure so much more suffering and pain than we might think. Beating SI is damn difficult and I would say that people who can do it are in total desperation and hopelessness. When the pain of life becomes greater than the pain of death then it's easier to overcome SI.

I'm sorry you're in so much pain.


There's a thread about knots.

Knots megathread - a guide

hii! I haven't seen this on the website so I decided to make a compilation of all useful knots I found off of this website (animatedknots.com). I only chose knots that would be useful for hanging, I didn't consider other uses (doesn't mean it can't be used for other things). I used a shoelace...

sanctioned-suicide.net

hey thank you so much. I already went thru that thread but that's what I'm saying. I went thru so many threads and still have way too many questions left ):

 

[nihilistic_dragon]

I wonder the same thing. Are we just overthinking everything?

 

[Undertow Mermaid]

A) Go play in heavy traffic, especially if semi's are coming
B) Find a train track and lay your neck along the smooth rail for the ultimate in decapitation fun
C) Hang yourself, not that hard just make sure you cut that artery off from the sweet sweet blood supply
D) Find a really high place, a building, a mountain, somewhere you know once you splat you're done, for added fun tie a piano wire around your neck and secure it onto something that can hold your weight before you jump
E) Light yourself on fire, not the funnest or easiest of the ways but woowee what a statment and major balls too